What am I feeling?

Below are a few songs by Savage Garden – I love their stuff – especially the CD titled Affirmation

To me that CD is like one massive love story/dedication – it just really for me hits the way I view some things and if I ever feel enough to dedicate the CD to you, well then that means the romantic sap in me is rearing its head and you mean a lot – of course I could say that about a lot of songs – my relationship Lyrics file I keep is like up to 50+ pages – lol and always adding songs every day

Anyhoo

Day started off with a bang – literally – I fell outta bed cause I forgot to set the alarm and was almost late for my workshop so in a hurry and got tangled up in the sheets – I am always getting tangled up in something – lol I am a klutz both physically and mentally – tripping over thoughts and words – lol - I joke about being blonde and such but I really am a frazzled, rambling, spacey blonde more often than not - that's me - deal or leave me a lone - after 30 seconds my short temr memory will kick in and I'll foget what I was going to say anyway

Finding nemo's Dory is my idol! LOL

Taught an all day Introduction to Digital Video workshop today and also had two curriculum meetings with teachers to basically continue filling my summer.

The teachers have to write or revise their class curriculum and I am the one in charge – the meetings today and last week was for my boss the Assistant Superintendent of Curriculum, technology and instruction (as I said the real person who runs the school – it is always the woman of power behind the façade of title that gets things done and I am like the woman behind the woman – oooo what a nice position – j/k

Anyhoo so more teachers I am going to work with to reassure and help them – let's see so I am doing – Exploratory total (working with 6 teachers), special education, carpentry, cooling, heating and plumbing, marketing, another carpentry class, health, peer leadership, applied 9 English, world religions, robotics, discrete math, and a few others – I am going to know that school inside and out pretty soon

If I had the credentials I think my boss who is retiring soon is trying to get me in line for her job which is cool but will not happen – I just hope I can keep working there and have a job in the future – at least I am almost 100% positive I am working for another year (they renew my contract on a year to year basis)

Watching Scooby Doo 2 – well weird – lol

And I leave you with the songs as I am going to go and practice the piano in a bit - also going to post up this week another story I am working on called Online Love – it is different writing as well



"I Knew I Loved You"

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe

[chorus:]

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
and in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe

[repeat chorus]

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you

[repeat chorus to fade]

"Crash And Burn"

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

"The Best Thing"

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Sometimes I feel like this is only chemistry
Stuck in a maze searching for a way to
Shut down turn around feel the ground beneath me
You're so close where do you end where do I begin?
Always pushing and pulling
Sometimes sanity takes vacation time on me
I'm in a daze stumbling bewildered
North of gravity head up in the stratosphere
You and I roller coaster riding love
You're the center of adrenaline
And I'm beginning to understand

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Walk on broken glass make my way through fire
These are the things I would do for love
Farewell peace of mind kiss goodbye to reason
Up is down the impossible occurs each day
This intoxication thrills me
I only pray it doesn't kill me

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

You're the center of adrenaline
And I'm beginning to understand
You could be the best thing about me

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

You could be the best thing about me
What if you're the best thing about me?

"The Lover After Me"

Here I go again I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today
It's been seven months and counting
You've moved on
I still feel exactly the same
It's just that everywhere I go all the buildings know your name
Like photographs and memories of love
Steel and granite reminders
The city calls your name and I can't move on

Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me

Am I all alone in the universe?
There's no love on these streets
I have given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway
So this is my new freedom
It's funny
I don't remember being chained
But nothing seems to make sense anymore
Without you I'm always twenty minutes late

Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me

And time goes by so slowly
The nights are cold and lonely
I shouldn't be holding on
But I'm still holding on for you

Here I go again
I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today
But I'm standing at your doorway
I'm calling out your name because I can't move on

Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me