Thursday, March 30, 2006

Just a little bit now

Whew busy week and counting down to Saturday - oh yeah

Going up to Philly tonight for a lecture hosted by teh Federal Reserve Bank of Philadelphia "Benjamin Franklin and the Birth of a Paper Money Economy." Yes I am weird and attend all sorts of stuff - I am alsways so curious I just love seeing, hearing, asking questions and learning - add to exploring and trying things.

So this should be interesting and yes I think fun. Then hopefully I will get a few tests and labs graded tonight and maybes write a little and also start to clean up the house (aka laundry and crap) to get ready for the trip.

Okay more laters - lots more been going on just gotta get self motivated to write... motivation, something that's been missing a lot from my life lately and i wish I could get it back... ah well - On to hearing about Ben Franklin : )

Monday, March 27, 2006

getting through the week :)

Whew – been a long busy week. For many physical and mental/emotional reasons. Had to prep for a major in service Friday which did not go as well as it should have. The faculty really were all over and stuff was not as productive as I wish it had been.

Trying to write a couple of grants for a few programs, working on getting curriculum together and just plugging through lots of projects. Always something going on at work – political, educational and the like

Ended up not going to teach my class last Tuesday as I caught a bit of conjunctivitis so tomorrow I am giving them a take home exam instead of having the exam in class. They will either love it or hate it – lol

I have eye appointment tomorrow- with the ophthalmologist rather than optometrist. I am scared. I always hate the eye doctor because my mother had a disease and went blind and I am always afraid… how she managed to make it through life… I could never be that strong…

Been working slowly to redo the back yard, which means a lotta digging and pulling and dragging and carting and very sore muscles and stll not done yet. But I will keep plugging away :-D

Well next Saturday leaving to go out and meet sisters and spend almost the full week in Disneyland – I am sooooooooooooooo stoked

A major secret wish if my life were slightly different would be to work in Disney doing various jobs. I mean to be a character and loved by millions and adored and chased after. Besides in those costumes no one can see where you are looking and my eyes fall naturally at a certain female body part and… hehe Seriously I love to people watch and I really do like Disney – there is something about it….

Saw V for Vendetta – I liked that movie a lot. I need to see it again because some of the dialogue is so sharp. Also want to get the graphic novel and read it.

Researching Batgirl and voodoo and assorted villains for a story I am working on along with many other projects to keep me busy and distracted from work. No major concert plans on the horizon until the 28th of April - at least for now – hehe Got tickets to see Avenue Q when I go with my sister to Vegas in May.

Working on project for my presentation in Chicago – that conference is April 30 – May 4 so gotta get cracking on that. Also will be presenting in Detroit in July it looks like – yay lots of fun - hehe

Monday, March 20, 2006

awesome concert

Attended an awesome concert last night (Oh yeah she screams pumping fist in air and screaming rock on, oh hell yeah - lol)

Went to the tweeter Center in Camden and say The Hush Sound, First to Last, Hawthorne Heights, All American Rejects and Fallout Boy. I liked all of them (although First to Last is kinda like heavy The Darkness so was not as much into them).

I like the sound of The Hush Sound and got their CD - very good and I would (hopefully will) see them again. First to Last as mentioned was more heavy metal and the lead screamer I mean singer had a thing for his hair (kept touching it, no fondling it would be a better word - lol) - it was at least entertaining to watch them prancing around.

The last three bands of course is why I went - I liked HH here although seeing them as the lead at House of Blues made this performance of course seem too short. Interesting note - at HOB they did more of their screamo stuff and less of that was done here.

The All-American Rejects was actually my favo band of the night and why I got the tickets - I'd love to see them headline and hope that happens. I have had Dirty Little Secret and Move Along in my head for about three weeks and now they are FIRMLY in head (got their CD too). They did Swing, Swing which man I was already jumping but that really got me going.

None of the first four bands had much of a stage act although the stage presence of HH and TAAR were really good. But Fallout Boy - ok they had presence and stage fun. They took the whole stage first off as opposed to the other bands that only played about half the stage. The backdrop where these huge curtains with some cartoon guy in some bad situation and they kept changing them every few songs. So that was cool and the scenes were darkly funny (like the second one was the guy taking a bath and a toaster that is on is dropping towards him even as he is unaware.

Then they had two side screens with clips and movies going every song. Add to that they had pyrotechnics OMG scared the shit outta me and half the crowd but when they did Sugar We're Going Down as they sang the first chorus there was a loud canon bang and flames shot up along the back of the stage. They used the flames for a few other songs. That was COOOOOOLLLLL, then the one band member talked a lot between songs and he had a swear box. LMAO every time he swore, he plopped a T-Shirt in the box and at the end of the concert they threw about 20 shirts or more into the crowd - nice fan appreciation. The same guy kept flipping his guitar picks into the crowd which was cool - I swear he musta tossed out at least 30 or more.

Then there was this weird intermission - the band left the stage and this guy came out and demonstrated an ATOMIC WEDGIE - he had stage hands come out and hold his underwear (no shit I kid you not) as he jumped down from the high stage - it ripped his underwear right off (which was oooooowwwww and ewwww and then they threw it into the crowd - ick)

Also the one band member - the same one that talked to the crowd and was throwing picks into crowd - he jumped into the pit and when they got him back on stage - his shirt was all ripped and barely hanging on him - DAMN - he also went into the crowd for the last song - but there he had a stage hand holding him - LMAO

The crowd was interesting and fun to watch. I was only five rows back from the pit and that was pretty close to the stage. So other than my usual I can not see I had a decent view and managed to dance and weave and bob and still catch everything. On my one side were a couple of girls who found it more fun to critique and make fun of the other people around. They were dressed like the chick from Legally blonde but priss and snob suited their demeanor better - they enjoyed a few of the songs. Right in front of them were two guys who stood there the entire time and did not move and kept leaving their seats. To my right was a cool group who sang and enjoyed the concert as did the group right in front (who were funny and joking and cracking up all the time.)

I had an awesome time and danced and sang and it was fun. Whoooo and Wheeee

Sunday, March 19, 2006

just hanging around waiting on others

Well ysterday I was sitting around waiting for a dresser to be delivered. They could not give me any indication of time other than Saturday. So I sit around trying to be productive and do things while waiting.

It is hard, I do not feel too motivated or want to get into any large project because as soon as I get set they come and disturb.

This means icky stuff like cleaning, trying to read, or other little things are so far filling the day.

I plan more yard work, yes the never ending battle with the weeds and landscape. The woman who owned the house before this had an ultra forest green thumb. I have a mega purple thumb – which means brown – or rather brown is now the color of most of the front and back yard ;-P

So I got some tools and have been slowly ripping up stuff and trying to actually work it into something – tight now I am still in the break my back and make muscles I never knew I had mad stage. I dig, garden weasel and fight to tear up the layer of stuff there now. Throw it on this dollar store tarp and then drag it to the back forty field we have here.

The back forty field is not actually mine but it is – hehe I can use it and could plant or whatever but it is kinda co owned by the development – or something weird. It was in the fine print I signed when getting this place and I hate fine print. So I drag the dirt and weeds in the back, dump the tarp which is hard because it is heavy and if I lift it up over my head I am not tall enough so I lift and twist and shit.

Then I go back and repeat. I still got a lot to do. Then I gotta think what to put in place. Sand and rocks sounding pretty good to me right now but I know that is not all green and environment friendly. I know I want something I do not have to water. See that makes me sound good and all environmental conscious when really I am lazy as hell and do not wanna water. – Hey if it makes me look good and gets noticed by a girl – just teasing.

So I exercised a little, cleaning, going to do yard work and trying to grade labs and stuff.

And of course once the furniture comes more rearranging and such shall occur – blech housework and projects…..

At least tomorrow it is Fall Out Boy, All-American Rejects, Hawthorne Heights and more – ohhhhhh yeahhhhhhhhhhh and two weeks until I visit my sister with my daughter and we all hit Disneyland. I am the biggest kid of them all and running around.

Seriously, check out this picture and pick me out from all my nieces, nephews and daughter – betcha can't – hehehehe – and missing from this picture is little baby Ian the newest nephew – I get to see him for the first time when I go – I get to hold him for first time and everything – more fun

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Nice things over the weekend

Well not the weekend per se but caught a set by a cover band called Groove Box 6 Thursday at The Wave – they were 70s funk and disco and a little 80s. Pretty good.

Friday was blech work and other topics wise but hey caught Noises Off – the Cumberland Players – a local community theater group put the play on and it was AWESOME. I love the movie and story and the unique way they did the set and three acts just rocked, and I had the front row aisle prime seat – damn I could see everything and it was niceeeeee

Then Saturday I travled to Ocean Grove (exit 100 I am way down at exit 36 – yes I travel all over) – but went to see a script in hand play/reading of the play The Most Fabulous Story Ever Told. Oooooo man I loved it – the story was funny and also touching (okay I did not cry but teared up a few times). And the way they staged the 'play" was good. And the actors just worked so well. It was easy to see the characters not the people sitting there reading the play. I wish more stuff like that was closer to me. The play was held in a place called The starving Artist and I plan on going back up to ocean Grove during the day and walking around.

And I only got lost twice getting to the place – LMAO

Sunday was errand and at home day and I started the long project of redoing the little front and back yard I have – and today my shoulders and neck hurt but I did get a start to things.

It is spring break for the two college classes I teach but regular work for my day job.

It is also two years this week since my ex left. And thus two years since being in a relationship with anyone as I have not seen anyone or dated or anything along those lines since we separated. Two years alone is a long time but I know there are many who have more tick marks in that area then I do.

But the spring break time leads to thoughts about those topics and wondering if it's just two years and someone is around the corner or if this is a much more routine thing and going to be the norm – I hope it is the first and I keep racing and peeking around that damn corner hoping to find someone peeking back at me…. And this is where I get really depressed and shout "okay damn it Marco now someone shout Polo fuck it so I can find you already…" ok got that outta my system……

Yup I'll keep checking and as my sister says someone will be there of course the way I bumble through life I will end up tripping and plowing into them knocking them down – hey they say first impressions - lol

PS – I got a letter today – it was the best part of the whole day in fact it is the kind of thing to help put this week into good thoughts not those other thoughts – something to focus on other than the down side of 2 long years and being alone – so yes, your letter came at a very good time, very, very good time – thank you you who sent it and as a plus any time this week or such I am feeling blech, I can look at one of your questions and things you mentioned and distract myself by exploring that idea (e.g. finding out about the music group, and finding the books you mentioned and the movies and… well all the wonderful things you put in there – lots of things to focus on that are good in life, like a letter and the special person who wrote it (PSS if you read this you really are an awesome, special woman and the world needs more like you, I mean it!)

Friday, March 10, 2006

lyrics that fit thoughts and mood in a weird way

SHERYL CROW LYRICS - "Always On Your Side"

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

SANTANA LYRICS - "I'm Feeling You" - (feat. Michelle Branch & The Wreckers)

Sometimes I imagine the world without you
But most time I'm just so happy that I ever found you
Its a complicated web
That you weave inside my head
So much pleasure with such pain
We always always stay the same

I'm feeling the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I'm riding the highs I'm digging the lows
Cuz at least I feel alive
I never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good I'm feeling you
I'm feeling you

You go and then I can finally breath in
Cuz baby I know in the end you're never leaving
Well we rarely ever sane
I drive you crazy and you do the same
But your fire fills my soul
And it warms me up like no one knows


REM LYRICS - "Daysleeper"

Receiving department, 3 a.m.
Staff cuts have socked up the overage
Directives are posted.
No callbacks, complaints.
Everywhere is calm.

Hong Kong is present
Taipei awakes
All talk of circadian rhythm

I see today with a newsprint fray
My night is colored headache grey

The bull and the bear are marking their territories
They're leading the blind with their international glories

I'm the screen, the blinding light
I'm the screen, I work at night.

I see today with a newsprint fray
My night is colored headache grey
Don't wake me with so much.

I cried the other night
I can't even say why
Fluorescent flat caffeine lights
Its furious balancing

I'm the screen, the blinding light
I'm the screen, I work at night

I see today with a newsprint fray
My night is colored headache grey
Don't wake me with so much.
The ocean machine is set to nine
I'll squeeze into heaven and valentine
My bed is pulling me,
Daysleeper. Daysleeper.
Daysleeper. Daysleeper. Daysleeper.


Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my {girl}friend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sittin in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleepin on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutant
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sittin in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleepin on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh an I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feelin sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishin that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sittin in the stands
I get A little bit she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

funny little thing called lo....

funny how some things just sneak up on you, then won't go away. even when you are being logical and know there is no way that thing can ever move outside the boundaries of your head... and yet... you really want it to jump from fiction to fact. Then reality comes crashing in and you realize what you want is happiness - and not just for you - because that ain't happening no your fact will have to come another way - fairy tale stories are just that - fariy tales that go poof and leave you as empty as before. No you just know you'll stay in your boundaries and wish for all that's holy that happiness for her, that she can walk away into a happy, filled relationship sunset and at least then you know part of you will be ok cause she is ok even if she won't be sharing that with you.
mood - meloncholy with a twist of lonely

Friday, March 03, 2006

Hawthrone Heights Show and other ramblings

Okay concert last night was very cool. Hawthorne Heights was good - although I do not like strobe lights - so I ended up closing my eyes a lot during their act - lol

They were the only ones who had strobes thank goodness.

I love the House of Blues venue - sitting in the seats is an awesome view and they vibrate from the music making it feel great and if I want I can go down and mill in the crowd.

Bands included Bleed the Dream, June, Anberlin, Emery and Hawthorne heights.

The one singer/plays the piano in Emery winds the I am a frenetic/hyped up/crazed?I hope he was high and not normally acting like that award for the evening. He was ALLLLLLL over - kept picking up the electronic keyboard and almost smashing it back down. And was like dancing and running all over the stage and throwing the mike and jumping on the drums (knocked them way over once) and kept giving the stage hands apoplexy as they tried to clean up after him and also security as the dude kept jumping into the crowd when singing and stuff - man he was a trip - actually Emery, of the five bands, was most like watching a fricking three ring circus - except the drummer and one bassist the rest were all over de place.

I got CDs - love to get them cheap at shows so I save.

On the way from the show I got really hungry and stopped at Canale St deli and got the pulled pork hot grinder -OOOOOO I am in love - a little over priced as it is casino prices but yummmmmmmm - the two people behind the counter were nice - they asked if I was coming from the show and wanted to see my CDs and posters and asked me about the bands -

Ok going to try for Sound Tribe Sector Nine tickets tomorrow at 10am sharp. The hit the boardwalk for my long ass walk.

And anyone reading this I have two tickets to the March 19th Fallout Boy concert in Camden - for the pit - I just want what I paid for them contact me - please - I have my own ticket for this show and do not wanna be out moola

well keeping my spirits as much in the not sad and feeling lonely place as possible - eh much of the world is alone so hey if they can make it so can I - course it would be nice even to find people to share activities with - if anyone is up for concert, travel, book clubs, whatever - give a holler always :-D

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Geologists Love Double entendre

Okay you know – during undergraduate everyone joked geologists were the party animals or lushes of the science world. It seemed we were always going out in the field and of course these field trips were to all sorts of places and always included great locations, local pubs and bars and such. Like my one professor had his field site down in Mexico – so we would go down load up on beer, shrimp (it was a shrimping community) and bread then go camp on the beach.

Another professor use to joke that many chose their field sites based on the presence of a local community pub.

But anyways if you look at geology and the various vocabulary and concepts used – so many have double meanings or are very close to other words. And that closeness caused me a little okay a lot of blush time during last night's lecture.

The subject was evolution – so nevermind the concept of passing things on via reproduction and all that (and the wonderful blush time from saying things like it is all about sex people – when I was trying to explain it was about passing on traits). But talking about reproduction and organisms well a couple times another O word popped out instead of the word organism…. SIGH

Then I got so excited I slapped the overhead to emphasize a point and blew out the bulb. So I once again lost the class – but we did manage to make it through the class… barely – LOL

Had another one of the focus group meetings for reworking the NAF curriculum plus managed to get a field trip through for the students – it will be a nice trip to hear about using the web to market businesses.

So mainly work and classes and home tis my average routine these days

Tomorrow House of Blues oh yeah baby – and I still have two tickets for the Pit area for the sold out Sunday show for awesome line up Fallout Boy and others – just contact me if you wanna go.

It would be nice to have company on some of these concerts and such I go to :-D