Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Dreams and trip update

ok i wrote this while on my trip - I am now home and trying to get through a number of things - an update on those things later, maybe, if I can kick my ass out of the incredible low funk i have fallen into - but here's the earlier rambles nonetheless

Ok – so I think there is something in the Arizona water – or this trip and being around my family if getting to me or I really am bonkers and it is just starting to really come out… but whatever the reason… man I had a bunch of weird dreams the last few days – this morning I had at least one which I remember very vividly.

I was in a car trying to park it in a parking garage. A very crowded and oddly configured garage – some parts outside, some covered. And I drove around a lot… then I probably slipped in and out of deeper sleep because there is a gap and then I remember from the dream that now I was walking or on a golf cart/bicycle thing. And I was trying to find a space. But check this – I’d walk or ride about one to two levels ahead looking – then go back, get my car and go up a couple of levels. Then walk ahead trying to find a space – it just started (and I am serious about this) it just started to occur to my dream self that if I did find a spot, how would I make sure it stayed open… I was thinking of putting a rock or something there when the dream hazed in and out and then I was back in the parking lot, but now there was this big playground in the middle and you could not drive through this part… so I guess my brain realized well how did the cars get on the other side, so then I found this McDonald’s like playground ride called a car carousal that you could put your car on and push off and get the car to the other side and continue looking for a parking spot.

What the hell that dream means I am not sure, especially since my other dreams have been about my mom, some things that have been happening with work, about the person I wish knew how much I liked them (and those dreams were an odd mix of one just me and her sitting on the couch watching a TV show and kinda leaning against one another and another dream, well no higher rating here) – but yeah I had even weirder dreams and I am like – ok brain is being extra funky…

Trip is going ok mostly – I started with a cold the day before I left and it is full blown now and I feel shitty, both physically and emotionally and such (long story – crappy November and a downer talk of sorts with Boss on Tuesday before I left leaving me very blah and down)….

But got to talk some already to all of my sisters and we managed dinner yesterday all together and then I hopped to a couple of sister’s houses today for thanksgiving and then wow all four sisters and out families were together to see Santa Clause 3 (which was n ok movie)

I did not get to do something I had planned on doing while here because I was sick -we may try for tomorrow – will have to see how that goes.

Tomorrow we also brave the wilds for some Early morning shopping and then maybe lunch down on 4th avenue. Then my one sister wants to take us to this place classed SantaTown up near Phoenix for the evening – whew…. We’ll see how much gets done

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

blooey busy

Phew - been keeping busy and yet not - hard to explain that

Let's see - some what's been going on things

finished reading Prozac Nation - I liked the book a lot - going to get a few of the books/movies she mentions in the book

Went to see Angels and Airwaves Saturday at the House of Blues - they and the two other bands - The Sounds and Envy On the Coast were great - plus had an encounter, so to speak, that I thought only happened on TV -

I was in the House of Blues's bathroom - I left before the encore to beat the rush - so no one was really in the upstairs bathroom - so I am in there and then two pairs of feet come into the stall next to me. No big deal - happens a lot especially towards the end of the show as people often a bit buzzed or such.

Well then I hear one person say, no way just stand there and then the second person goes, "I just wanna watch" - ok that gave me pause - not so much the words but the fact the voice was definitiely MALE - oookkkkk I am now trying to hurry along my bodily functions - there is a little more discussion between them about things and then, well, things moved from watching to a mroe active activity - the stall was shaking just a bit - phew-wheeee as I said - I'd only seen that happen in the TV world - lmao ;-)

Monday and today busy work wise as trying to get ready to go to Arizona on Wednesday - two of my sisters are still fighting and not speaking to one another and a bunch of other dramatic stuff.

My third sister who had just started at target already got a promotion and I am sure will end up in management eventually - she is a great person and a good worker

been trying to keep my mind off November blahs - that has been so so - my ex chose last week to go into some shit with me and it really hurt and got under my skin a lot...

been starting to think about road trip ideas for a road trip during the xmas break - if people have ideas - send them my way - thinking about an offbeat, eccentric america type thing, or haunted places or maybe go to a place that is too crowded and madness intentionally - like say Orlando or such.....

Monday, November 13, 2006

Holy Short midget Batman - There's a Name for My condition

It is official - I have ISS (I come in a bit under the height limits they mention in the article) - who knew - LMAO - although the driving a car thing is always an issue - as is those fricking top shelf items in the grocery story

although 50,000 per inch - I'd rather see that money go somewhere else IMO

ahhhhhhhh the wacky world

Friday, November 10, 2006

when half an inch does not mean half and inch and jumping

Well - went to the hair place in the mall and told them half an inch. She confirmed, half an inch trim off the bottom. At the end I found her half inch meant two inches and now everyone says have a "cute" haircut - ugh

Plus I got a nice discussion on sushi - not that I really eat sushi.

Was listening to my mix CDs on the drive home from class and the Madonna song Jump came on - man I so feel like that song - I so wish I had a place or person to Jump to : ) actually I would not leave here just for myself - little one needs her father even if I don;t have much here - I think right now the only thing that would make me leave is if I met someone and things developed from there - yeah looks like I am in So. NJ for the long haul - I think that is another reason I like to travel so much - unlike the song I can not Jump to another place - but at least like a bungee jump I can experience a temp thrill even if I snap back.....

On another note - I have been thinking for a long time about getting a tattoo and it looks like it may happen - I'll wait until it is done before really going into things :P yeah I have gone over all the reasons to and not to get a tattoo - I have been planning this like I said for years and have found someone my brother-in-law uses - yes I am getting it when I visit Arizona - hehe - and like I said more on that if and when I finally go through with things

Jump - by madonna

There’s only so much you can learn in one place
The more that I wait, the more time that I waste

I haven’t got much time to waste, it’s time to make my way
I’m not afraid of what I’ll face, but I’m afraid to stay
I’m going down my own road and I can make it alone
I'll work and I'll fight, Till I find a place of my own

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby,
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to jump

We learned our lesson from the start, my sisters and me
The only thing you can depend on is your family
And life’s gonna drop you down like the limbs of a tree
It sways and it swings and it bends until it makes you see

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to, are you ready?

There’s only so much you can learn in one place
The more that you wait, the more time that you waste

I'll work and I'll fight till I find a place of my own
It sways and it swings and it bends until you make it your own

I can make it alone(my sisters and me) (repeat 7x)

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to jump

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to, are you ready?

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Satisfying my rambling, weird brain's curiosity

Ok - I managed to find an answer to something I found curious today.

I took my environmental science and physical geology classes on a field trip today. We went to Wissahickon park in Philadelphia PA today to study metamorphic rocks, Appalachian Mountian geology and river geology and water pollution.

It was butt ugly cold in the morning - but a sunny day and it got up to the 40s and 50s by the end of the trip. I had a good showing and we had fun - I made those students walk all over and hopefully learned something - if nothing else they all were picking up rocks and stuff.

But on the drive back through Philly, a cop car passed us and I looked and it said Postal Police. even though it was a cop car with lights and everything it had the postal symbol on it.

I was WTF postal police... so after some stereotypical jokes about postal workers needing police and such - I made a note to look into it and I finally did and found this -

Who knew such a position exsisted - not me

It always amazes me how much there is out there to learn - that is why I love listening to people and watching things and exploring and traveling and reading and well just - shit - being curious and finding out about something neat - everything in a sense fascinates me...

I know that is a dorky thing, but that is me... gotta explore and find out - Life's too much an adventure not to take advantage

Thursday, November 02, 2006