One of those Yucky taboo Topics

Okay I find my life here of late slowly becoming slightly obsessed with a certain topic - human excrement. Yes, I just went ewwww while typing this myself. So do not read the rest of this post if you have a low comfort level regarding this topic - you have been warned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is not something I normally talk about, think about or anything about. It is something that all forms of life do (and in all forms at that - lol) and it is as natural as well as breathing, eating (the place this topic all starts - lol) and other certain topics some of which I also blush talking about...

I find this is one of those topics that tests people's taboo and comfort meter - you know - those topics that some whisper, some shout, some find appropriate ways to joke and talk about this topic on occasion, some laugh at, some discuss casually and some never speak of sh*@ .....

I always laugh even though it is corny at the joke in Buffy about Willow spelling out a certain word and being admonished for displaying her obvious low comfort zone. Then you get the Monty Python skit about sex where the British schoolmaster and his wife are doing a sex ed class and are very sterile and having sex right there in front of these young boys as he rattles off the action using a cold, neutral, instructional tone while discussion chores to be done with his wife...

Different approaches to certain topics - I love people and how the world revolves...

Anyways

My mind is has been focused on this because for people with Spina Bifida it tends to be something they have to focus on and approach differently than most of the world. See the lumbar region of the spine is where bowel and bladder control is located, so any damage to the area affects the way human, um, well, shit and pee (you know I had to descend into the non-clinical, non-scientific words at least once in this post - although saving the kickers for last - lol)

Issues can include loss of control, no sensations or feelings past a certain point in that area and body, clogging of the colon and other parts of the system, backflux, bladder pressure issues, kidney stuff and other things too. Basically a person can not feel when to go, can not hold it so it constantly comes out and so on....

This means over the course of a person's life they must develop certain programs, schedules, regimens, use different medicines, equipment, diet, pads, diapers, etc.

And no one person is the same and the system changes with age as a person becomes more aware of well, what if anything they can feel, how much they tend and when.... realistically it is all still a natural system, one that just flows differently than most peoples.

Well in the last week and a half, the fact that we have to develop a program for daughter has become more and more intense and thus fueling my obsession with this topic.

She is now on a three strikes and you are out setup at her preschool.daycare (of course that is not how the "we love your daughter and doing the best for her" head person says it but realistically....) If she has two movements in a short amount of time and basically soils her diaper, then we get a call. Third time and they want her picked up and taken home. Does not matter if I or John are working or whatever, does not matter T is not sick just doing her natural thing.

I am so afraid this is going to give her a great perception of this particular taboo subject - I mean she says words already because of the attention (we call a enema time at night poopy test - along with the other things we do together we have poopy test time - so more focus on this topic.... and she is in the room often with the doctors and teachers and other people discussing things so she hears things....)

So had to adjust my work schedule to get doctor notes and go get an X-ray done to once again readjust her regimen at home and to start to be ready if we get a call to figure out how to get her (means canceling whatever I or John is doing, having to reschedule and such... plus she is missing her school activities and such)

Then a trip yesterday to the spina bifida clinic along with calls all last week and this week to doctors and specialists and such trying to figure out how to keep her clean for most of the day - how to regulate a natural body function.....

This whole thing started back up cause got a call today to pick her up because she had a bit of stuff in her diaper....

This daily regulation and trying to control nature already consists of (I'll list a few to give idea, there is more but it is just part of the daily routine) an antibiotic because she has kidney reflux because of bladder, special diet to watch the types of foods going in and how they come out, once again starting up the laxative (which then when her stools are very loose like the doctor wants people get upset about that too and start saying oh looks like she is having diarrhea and I am like yesssssssssss that is what the laxative and - like fuck it people make up your mind frst too much too ahrd so complain and send home then too soft so again send home, not have to deal... damnit - anyways) and she gets an enema a night.... a night, every night something is stuck in her ... sigh anyways

So we play this game were we try something new - change a medicine, the time of day we do something see how it goes, realize it is not satisfying some doctor, some preschool teacher, someone else, and then change something else, try something new, more dependence on medicines, equipment (eventually she may even be able to self catherize and regulate that function too)

just keep playing the game hoping we finally get things settled and get something normal for her, something to not be too intrusive like it has become for me - hope she never becomes obsessed with this topic like I am.

My daughter, John and I are like whatever we just have a normal life and change the diaper when we need to.... but everyone else pushes thing into this is not good category....

So I find myself thinking more and more and more about

Feculence, dross, shite, ca-ca (or kah-kah), excrement, shit, dung, shiznit, poop, BM, scat, ish, scítan ,crap, stool, log, feces, bog, ordure, turd....

Whew had to get that load out - LOL

Ain't life just shitty sometimes.....

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