Just a little writing drabble

a couple of songs played on my internet radio station and they just seem to really express many feelings and thoughts right now - ah well

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars [4:25] - Eyes Open


Simple Plan - Untitled [3:58] - Still Not Gettin' Any


But on to drabble

I Wish I Had a Moment With You
(dedicated to N, but she will never know)

Visually few know when the Moment occurs. Most find they can not say exactly when, how or why the Moment happened.

Most can, at some point after the Moment, sense that it has happened. But even with thorough analysis, pinpointing that instant is elusive.

Some can recognize the steps before, leading to the point of no return. And there are those who identify the resulting after effects, the ripples that spread and forever change those involved in the Moment.

So what can you do?

Before a Moment you know who you are, where you belong, what you want and how to get through the next day.

After a Moment your entire world and perspective is sitting in the trash and you are frantically trying to dig through the wastebasket to find out what the hell just happened.

Whimpering, you try to understand why nothing makes sense. What you thought you knew, what and who you thought you wanted and even all the ways to get back to where you were are closed... denied.

A Moment marks the action, thought, word, deed, right turn, wrong turn, physical, mental or emotional step that divides before the Moment {{when all is good and clear and easy, if not remotely frustrating and lacking as you want, desire, fantasize}} and after the Moment {{when all is crazier than Mardi Gras, cloudier than the middle of a thunderstorm and harder than climbing Mt Everest yet it is a rush, exhilarating, or incredibly dark and forever gone}}

It's the place that person sends you with a single Moment of them - the place where you are lucky to remember your name never mind all the details like who you thought you were, what you thought you wanted and what you thought you knew.

My wish? To be graced with a Moment with you. To have my world intersect yours with the intensity that comes from when Moments take hold. To share and ride the waves together after our incredible Moment regardless of the direction it might take. A Moment, that's all I want.

Well of course after that Moment there's the next one.... :-D