Ok one good thing in among the about to blow mindset I am in

did get an awesome piece of news with all the crap stuff today althugh even the good news means more work - I submitted a proposal in June to a State education department request for lessons. It was chosen as one of 6 from state of NJ to go on to the national level for consideration. Got a letter today and proposal was accepted to be presented at the International Reading Conference in Chicago in May - yay I am honored I made it through state and national but now i gotta work on it and present and whew