I Have to Pencil in actually taking a breath Next Thursday, i get to pee the following Friday

Working on trying to do way too much. Coordinating this advisory board luncheon for NAF for tomorrow - I am the Director. Well I have a million things to do to coordinate that (printing name tags, seating charts, writing up a director's letter, cutting apart brochures, you name it I am doing it - lol) Plus, the worse, I gotta get up in front of over 40 students, teachers, administrators and important business people and at least talk a little - my stomach is hurting sooo bad and I am so scared - yeah I am a grown woman who is scared to death - yes I teach and get up in front of people - but I actually get badly nervous even then - but then as I teach it gets better and is fun eventually - lol - but speaking in front of groups of people especially business and administrators and such

I am dying really really badly - a lot of work and focus on deadlines and having another project always around the corner and nothing or anyone to really balance craziness save my little one, my one sister (who will prolly kill me at any moment - lol - thanks kathy) and one other person who probably has no idea just how much what she does and just being around so I can chat/write/and such saves my sanity and really helps me make it through the day

And then there is all the other work (my college classes - which are fun to teach but lots of work), curriculum, coordination, staff development workshops and......- and oh man - a lot of politics bad politics at the school - the contract was voted down by the staff - so now it goes back to negotiations - very bad

More teachers are leaving - we lose another dynamic teacher next week as they move over to an administration job - it is crazy and lots of gossip and movement in the school and of course my boss is leaving by summer (which has me badly depressed and scared - yeah again with the scared shit - I know I gotta knock that off...

Well I will exhale a large breath so my lips make a raspberry sound and head off to work on the next thing - what else is there to do?

Just heard this song on my Internet Radio stations - it fits my mood somewhat (as does the song by Queen I'm Going slightly Mad - man I love all the madness sayings in that song - :-D I think I add that song here to :-P

Bad Day- Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day


Queen - I'm Going Slightly Mad

When the outside temperature rises
And the meaning is oh so clear
One thousand and one yellow daffodils
Begin to dance in front of you - oh dear
Are they trying to tell you something ?
You're missing that one final screw
You're simply not in the pink my dear
To be honest you haven't got a clue
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened - happened
It finally happened - ooh woh
It finally happened - I'm slightly mad - oh dear !
Ha ha ha ha ha

I'm one card short of a full deck
I'm not quite the shilling
One wave short of a shipwreck
I'm not my usual top billing
I'm coming down with a fever
I'm really out to sea
This kettle is boiling over
I think I'm a banana tree
Oh dear
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad (I'm going slightly mad)
It finally happened - happened
It finally happened - uh huh
It finally happened - I'm slightly mad - oh dear !

Uh uh ah ah
Uh uh ah ah

I'm knitting with only one needle
Unravelling fast it's true
I'm driving only three wheels these days
But my dear, how about you ?
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened
It finally happened - oh yes
It finally happened - I'm slightly mad !
Just very slightly mad !
And there you have it !