Working on a better mindset

Song and mindset for the day - now if I can just get there and stay there : )

Soak up the Sun by Sheryl Crow - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbsMPd_SkcU

"Soak Up The Sun"

My friend the communist
Holds meetings in his RV
I can't afford his gas
So I'm stuck here watching TV
I don't have digital
I don't have diddly squat
It's not having what you want
It's wanting what you've got

[CHORUS:]
I'm gonna soak up the sun
Gonna tell everyone
To lighten up (I'm gonna tell 'em that)
I've got no one to blame
For every time I feel lame
I'm looking up o I'm gonna soak up the sun
I'm gonna soak up the sun
I've got a crummy job
It don't pay near enough
To buy the things it takes
To win me some of your love
Every time I turn around
I'm looking up, you're looking down
Maybe something's wrong with you
That makes you act the way you do
Maybe i am crazy too

[CHORUS]

I'm gonna soak up the sun
While it's still free
I'm gonna soak up the sun
Before it goes out on me
Don't have no master suite
I'm still the king of me
You have a fancy ride, but baby
I'm the one who has the key
Every time I turn around
I'm looking up, you're looking down
Maybe something's wrong with you
That makes you act the way you do
Maybe I am crazy too

[CHORUS]

I'm gonna soak up the sun
Got my 45 on
So I can rock on.

To Do List and gotta keep laughing

Julie's To Do List for 1/14 – 1/22

Panic, go insane, get into lots of trouble, procrastinate, more trouble, a bit of mayhem, an eureka/a-ha moment, did I mention panicking and oh yes, loving that insanity :P

Seriously, next couple weeks lots swirling in my head, and then I have work stuff too : )

Let's see: have to prepare my Historical Geology lecture/lab and my Environmental Science lecture/lab for Cumberland College classes starting week of 1/21

Prepare Earth science lecture and lab for Atlantic Community College class starting week of 1/21

Prepare my Virtual High school class Advanced Web Design for the high school students for starting week of 1/21

Prepare little one for corrective surgery as part of her bladder/bowel program 1/17 and 1/18

Work through Distance Learning Unit with high school students and get them finished and on track – 1/14 – 1/22

And then there are projects at home, writing projects (I have got to keep my music and writing, only things that keep me grounded besides T and Kathy… Kathy I think I will be calling you aaaaallllllotttttttt this week)

But in a way, the busy is good right now, it keep my mind from thinking about things and swirling and getting frustrated or upset about certain topics I have little control over…

On the music front – T and I found these 80s mix CDs at target – we both picked one – she loves to play with those displays that sample music. You know what I mean, they have all these albums and you push one and it plays clips from the CD, man we find one of those and we are there for hours haha, but yeah we were getting into those and then I gots a new song on MySpace that three-quarters applies right now, a few lines don’t, well I hope they don't…. and below are a couple more interesting songs… always keeping a mix running : )

So tops on my to do list – go insane and just laugh at life… always gotta laugh, so feel free to stop by and laugh with me… I'll even tickle you if needed (I'd offer to tell some jokes but then you'd be chasing after me to make sure I never told jokes again, hehe, so I stick to other ways to make you laugh….)

Keane - Everybody's Changing

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Also

Simple Plan – Untitled

Deana Carter has an interesting song too – Girl You Left Me For :p

And yes she is a country singer mainly – soooo what... I wander around in my likes hehe

I wish I could give you the love you deserve
I wish I could be your servant du jour
I wish I could tell you the things that I'm not
I wanna show you what I've got
And I wish you would love me anyway

Chorus
I wanna be the girl you left me for
I wanna be the one that you adore
I wanna be the girl you left me for

I'm gonna treat you more like a king
Make me a puppet without any strings
I want your perfume on my pillowcase
She's gonna turn you inside out and I...
I'm gonna love you anyway

Chorus
I wanna be the girl you left me for
I wanna be the one that you adore
I wanna be the girl you left me for

Bridge
You've got me on my knees
Don't break my heart again
I don't want your sympathy

Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah
I wanna feel you on my fingertips

Chorus
I wanna be the girl you left me for
I wann be the one that you adore
I wanna be the girl you left me for
I wanna be the one that you adore
I wanna be the girl you left me for

distances

Google maps says 2148 miles

Mapquest says 2143.59 miles

Yahoo maps Says 2151.76 miles

MSN Maps says 2163.9 miles

How far is it says 1860 miles as the crow flied


That's how far it is from my house to El Paso

I say that's too far sometimes : ( ah shit

addeum to last post

and yes her can be used for many things, I even refer to life as her in some cases... :P

ugh the next two weeks

ok I just gotta get through to the 24th or so and get everything on my bleeping long todo list done and I may even keep my sanity along the way - sigh - just when things look like being smooth - el bumpo in el roado slamo in face-o ah wello :P

I'll update better with everything going on - for now a new song to outline the sentiment of many things of late yes if not careful in addition to insane I may get a little worn down :-P

http://youtube.com/watch?v=O8V6Y3YjBAI

whew wheeeee life's funnnnyyyyyy :P

Rachael Yamagata (there's actually a couple of really good songs of this CD I like)

also visit here and catch some AWESOME replies and interpretations what these lyrics mean I loved what people said - http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Worn-Me-Down-lyrics-Rachael-Yamagata/EFE21233C53F46B048256EE70010F2F0


Worn Me Down

Gone - she’s gone.
How do you feel about it?
That’s what I thought.
You’re real DONE UP about it.
And I wish you the best
But I could do without it
And I will because you’ve worn me down
Oh, I will because you’ve worn me down

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please you.
But you can’t stop thinking about her.
No, you can’t stop thinking about her.

And you’re wrong. You’re wrong.
I’m not overreacting.
Something is off.
Why don’t we ever believe ourselves?
And I, oh I, I feel that word for you.
And I will because you’ve worn me down.
And I will because you have worn me down.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please.
But you can’t stop thinking about her.
No, you can’t stop thinking about her.

She’s so pretty.
She’s so damn right.
But I’m so tired of thinking about her, again, tonight.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please you.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told me to do.
But you, you can’t stop thinking about her.
No, you can’t stop thinking about her.
No, you can’t stop thinking about her.
No, you can’t stop thinking of her.

It's My Party and I'll Blah if I want to :P

OK – heard a song on the radio on the way home today that just tickled my fancy and fits in perfectly with today – I'll put the lyrics down below and see if you can guess (hint check out the title and the refrain and my longing to find someone who sings this to me :P – and yes it is a very egotistical reason, but then hey, tonight is all about me.

Yup – I am celebrating my birthday and yes, tomorrow and the next day and Monday on my actual birthday I will go back to not liking birthdays because they mark another year alone and getting older alone and all that depressing shit.

But for tonight – I am partying and enjoying myself.

I splurged and started on the way home getting Boston Market – Sirloin broccoli and sweet potatoes, yum and ok not a total splurge but that is because I am saving calories for later tonight – hehe –

but home I came and was good and exercised and colored (still working on my stain glass designs – going to put them up on this one glass door I have).

Then later tonight it is Ugly Betty (and damn if those episodes won't be even funnier buzzed) hehe and yes fruity drinks – tonight it is Julie's Orange what the bleep is in there – what is in there is Citrus Vodka, Cointreau (an orange liquor) Orange mandarin seltzer, cranberry juice and maybe a random surprise :P

And maybe if I am real lucky some writing or posting or something (ok wishing for the other kinda lucky on my b-day but maybes next year, who knows, I'll keep wishing)

Alright off to do some responsible stuff before the partying.

And then tomorrow it is a long walk on the Atlantic City boardwalk (time pending how head feels from tonight lol) to get back into doing walking and exercising and to watch the pre-hysteria – Hannah Montana concert is tomorrow on the Atlantic City Boardwalk hall (if I sleep in too late I go walk on ocean city boardwalk and see same ocean, but less hysterical teenyboppers and frazzled parents lmao)

lyrics

Hey Julie By Fountains of Wayne

Working all day for a mean little man
With a clip-on tie and a rub-on tan
He's got me running 'round the office like a dog around a track
But when I get home,
You're always there to rub my back

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through without you around

Hours on the phone making pointless calls
I got a desk full of papers that means nothing at all
Sometimes I catch myself staring into space
Counting down the hours 'til I get to see your face

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around

[Bridge]
How did it come to be
That you and I must be
Far away from each other every day?
Why must I spend my time
Filling up my mind
With facts and figures that never add up anyway?
They never add up anyway

Working all day for a mean little guy
With a bad toupee and a soup-stained tie
He's got me running 'round the office
Like a gerbil on a wheel
He can tell me what to do
But he can't tell me what to feel

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through without you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around