Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

Well not much going on for halloween weekend really - eh I think I will dress up for work on monday at least - I am going as a dork thing - a yellow smiley face that has vampire teeth. That should make me look all official as I have a couple of meetings and training sessions. "Yes we are instituting this new curriculum for our Exploratory class and stop giggling at my costume, I am being serious here damnit people...." :-D I love using smiles and emoticons - anyone who chats with me online and even in my blogs knows I love the smiley - I actually have this whole complicated hierarchy setup - no shit - online communication lacks so much. Yet people develop speech and mood/feeling patterns in cyberspace just as they do in real life. Just harder to catch and you have to be very observant... I mean down to how many times they use prepositions or conjunctions, how they type out slang, contractions, what greeting they use, how many times they say ok vs eh or ah or such…. and s...

The sunlight streamed in through the slatted blinds casting shadows and random patterns of light on the dark blue comforter. The body nestled underneath began to stir and the lump shifted shape. The calico balled up at one end of the lump yawned and then kneaded through the covering some in protest as the movements became more pronounced and threatened to upset the cat. An arm snaked out and languidly moved to rest in an empty space. It then patted the bed as if in confusion and began patting a pathway up until it hit a pillow where it stopped. "Sherri?" A muffled voice tried to get through from beneath the comforter. A tussled tawny colored head peeked up and repeated the word, "Sherri?" "Oh yeah." Was the follow up saddened reply after a moment as the owner of the voice became more aware of her surroundings. Pulling deep back under the covers, the form balled up into a tighter, smaller lump and stopped all movement save for a tiny shaking in one a...

I think modifying the Green Day song "Wake Me When September Ends" by subbing November in for September would be good right about now. The couch has been more and more my chosen place of residence… and the sleep is shifting once again… I gotta really watch myself. I made it through another administrator workshop… I get very nervous – like tummy all upset and in puke mode. Plus tomorrow – well later today at work I have to take on a lead, assertive role and as I admitted to a co-worker yesterday that is one part of the job and if I move in the direction my boss wants me to, future job that I have problems with. I can lead and create and come up with ideas and how to implement… but I tend to be very shy, introvert and non-assertive. Someone going into an administrative position needs those qualities but also needs more backbone and to be sure of themselves… I have a major character flaw, as we all do… But one of my many flaws (and I say that not in a dissing myself way but ...

So is this really happening? Should it be happening? What's the definition of free speech again? http://truetales.org/writings/breakingnews05.htm

http://www.usatoday.com/tech/columnist/aprilholladay/2005-10-24-ice-spikes_x.htm now if I could solve the mystery of how to find someone to drag to the next silly thing I wanna do - lol :-P

Evolution – Change Through Time Argue if you will about certain points regarding evolution – the major concept is sound – things change over time – regardless of how hard they try and fight this natural order… I was sitting outside the Catholic school waiting to teach my workshop this morning. Just sitting in the car looking at the side of the building, the rainy clouds about to spill and collecting my thoughts to prepare for the workshop. There was this dead sparrow on the sidewalk in front of the building near my car… I really ha barely noticed it, pretty much ignored it. As I thought over the topic (teaching them the basics of web design) a big, big black crow swoops down and I watch it pick up the sparrow to take it away. It juggled with the smaller bird a few moments before getting a good angle with its beak, other crows suddenly appeared watching the process (much like seagulls flock when someone throws fries out the window at the local by the shore McDonalds). Even from death th...

Throwing the keys on the counter Jaden ripped her jacket off and threw it at the nearest piece of furniture. She closed her eyes a minute just listening to the sounds from the apartment hoping she wasn't alone again for the night. Sighing she opened her eyes just as a shadow streaked across the counter tearing into her keys. Thrusting her hands out in reflex, Jaden screamed and jumped back, tripping on her jacket which had slid off the vinyl chair. Breathing hard, unable to hear anything but her beating heart, she looked up and after a moment began laughing. "Shit Mr FancyPants. What the hell are you doing? Taking a page from Sheri's book I see." She shifted on the floor stretching her legs out actually glad to be resting. She'd been unable to even get a seat on the bus, ridership had been up as had the gas prices making it tougher to find a resting spot for her 44 minute commute one way to and from her job. Wiggling her legs around she looked at the apartme...

Feeling down, blech, unmotivated too busy and depressed about things I should kick myself in the butt and stop being so focused on but it does not change where I am. But trying to keep some silliness in the scheme...I participated in hat day today. It is spirit week here at the school and staff and teachers can (although many do not) participate as well... So for today, I wore my hat. My very dorky, doofy, silly, purple, fuzzy, pimp bought at a dollar store hat. Yes that is me below - I look so crappy on camera but eh... the hat looks spectacular and most stylin' (ok not really but hey I made people laugh and had people admit every time they looked at me and tried to focus on work they just couldn't - lmao

Well a lot of odd things happened today to add up to leaving me in the perplexed ala WTF ala "okay what is going on here regarding cosmic fate dealing my hand" column. First – I stopped by this morning on my way to work at me ex's to pick up a few things and he finally tells me why he has been feeling sick and off and such. He is fighting depression again – he'd had problems and gone on medication before… well unfortunately things are getting to him again (he won’t tell me much more…) but he was physically sick last night and a few other times and also very tired and such…. He was not sounding too good this morning and was talking about going again to the doctor's today to try and work out what to do next (regarding medicine and other treatments). I can get that – we've been separated almost 2 years and in fact the divorce is in the final steps…(not going to talk about that any more right now because of what he said in the divorce and all that – October and N...

So went to Philly Sunday night. South street on a Sunday was cool. Not as crowded but fun to watch people and such. And found this one place that sells some drink called The Gremlin and they were out (I was getting a diet coke) but people kept coming up asking for it and groaning that it was out. I think it is a fruit juice type thing. Also a guy from work suggested I go to the Pontiac Grill for the music… they had a great list for tonight but I had tickets to go to the TLA (Theater of Living Arts) Wow – went to a pretty good concert! First saw Mark Pond PA. I had not heard of them before but listening to their CD even as I type :) I enjoyed their sound. There were three guitarists, drummer and someone playing a cello. I will definitely keep an eye/ear out for them and see them again. I found their lyrics really good… the lead vocalist/guitarist had five different guitars and kept switching between them making for a lot of variation in the songs and sound. Then came Liz Phai...

Ok justa couple things now - more laters. Too busy at work - I must erase the word sucker from my forehead and learn that word... you know - NO Course I really need a job and saying no in a contract negotiation period is prolly the kiss of death - especially since my position is year to year and not protected by tenure like other teachers... even the blessed union I pay a ton o money to can not really protect my job because I do a million and one things it is so easy to rift my position and bring in someone else under a different title and just redistribute my tasks (only thing about seriously having at least a good 30 projects I oversee at any one time... makes me a very valuable asset to the place - hence my wish to say no here and never passing my lips at work) But one of those tasks I was just given - we have these programs using this online curriculum and my boss wants a paper copy of everything (lesson plans, powerpoint shows, student worksheets, excel files and such - there ar...

http://www.usatoday.com/tech/products/services/2005-10-10-yahoo-news-blogs_x.htm So based on the tidbit in article, does this mean I and my blog might become an offical source (if Yahoo says it is so than hey it must be... wow is it me or is the sarcasm thick in here??? :-P ) - Media person Julie at your service - lol I think my rambling sense would actually make more sense than many media reports (just teasing)

Sometimes it is the little things that make it all worthwhile (trust me – I am a little thing – I know this topic well - lol) I decided tonight would be Scream Trilogy night (I really should buy those movies – man Neve Campbell looking very fine – wahhoo and the movies themselves are good and funny) But anyhoo - I stop in movie store and looking around and I hear as I come up "Is it okay to bring… in here." Okay that's a little odd, then I see why the front counter clerks are starting to smirk. One of the shoobies (tourists) had a little dog on a leash. The clerks shrug and say ok. Now while I am checking out the clerks and I keep trying not to laugh and every time we look at each other we start to giggle. This is because we can hear. "Muffy, no get out of there." "Muffy stop that right now." "Muffy, no" [crash] "Muffy come back here right now" (that is when the dog suddenly appeared and went behind the counter). That is also ...

Well – it's official I really hate pain and I am sissy dweeb and ended up between Yesterday and now crying a number of times – geez I feel like a lame-o – no wonder my ex did not stay around and no one hangs around now. But anyway Wed. started with what I am now convinced is worse than the Chinese Water Torure -"Slenderizing" at least that is what they called it. I started bright and early in the morning going to orthodontists and they decided to start this slenderizing process. Now I had that done once before and it was bad but eh… however this time. They take these strips of metal sandpaper – seriously they look like a Ph strip but are longer. Then they go in and start sanding down/sawing the teeth – it makes gaps between the teeth. This process hurts for a lotta reasons – first my teeth are major sensitive - last dental cleaning I had to get her to stop once actually and made pretense of wiping face and rinsing mouth to catch my self and not say fuck it stop right...

My sister had her baby this morning - I now have one sister = three nephews next sister = one niece and three nephews and the one that just had the baby = 1 niece and now 2 nephews Whew - just spreading out like... must be something in that Tucson water :-P

Listening to music like Float On by Modest Mouse, Honey and the Moon by Joseph Arthur, And a Day by Ari Scott, Almost by Bowling for Soup, Collide by Howie Day, Genius by The Murmurs and Falling For You by Jem and IKnew I Loved You by Savage Garden (which has so many ways it could be interpreted), hmm wonder if there is a pattern in there somewheres LOl – actually there's not – there's a I wish pattern in there – haha – eh some day someone will pop up when I least expect it (ok, waiting for someone to pop up, anytime now, impatiently tapping foot, wellllll come on already :-P Well found out today a couple more teachers are leaving the school, and a few more put in job apps and a few more are looking. A major bummer as besides work (which actually I talk to people but I do not really do stuff with people from work or anything – too busy – lol), my sisters three quarters of the way across the continent, my ex, the few online friends and a couple of people around here I know, I ha...