Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

ok, so I did not keep this up for part two... hehe but hmmm Saturday continued ~430pm - lying in bed trying to nap, knowing I need rest and kathy calls, we talk for a bit and I realize I not tired yet. 5:15 - out to grocery store and grabbing some stuff, been putting off going for a bit. man I put too much lemon in the tea I made to take with, lemon sourness at its best. I have been told I drink lemon with a little tea flavoring hehe... strange, i am not big into lemonade, just lemon in tea and in water 9but no sugar that is lemonade hehe 6 something, talking to peoples online putting stuff up from trip 7 something finally lay down for a few hours late night - grading for classes, posting with people, worked a lot on this new game Cursed Curios - thinking about things and listening to the radio - i flip between about 3 channels so, that was my day (and yes I gyped the night, I'll have to redo this and keep better track,,, :P

Saturday, February 19, 2008 A Day in my life Saturday 6am – get up, shower get books ready for class 630 – drive to Cumberland County College – listen to some Angels and airwaves and then a local radio station plays Breakfast club Saturday morning which I like as it is 80s stuff but in the breakfast club vein – thought about the lab to get ready for it as well as some posting ideas 7:40 – arrive at college prepare for lab 8am – 11 – scheduled Environmental Science Lab (lectures are Friday nights 5 – 8) Today's topic – GeoHazards – volcanoes and earthquakes. Lecture for about 45 minutes then go to computer lab and students can work on lab there or at their convenience – about half the class stays – also their first test is next week o some have general questions 11:00 4 students still working so I stay – as students work, I sort papers, check my high school online class (I am teaching Advanced Web design with 25 students from all over. I grade their assignments, answer questions a...

Oh on top of everything else that happened today, I had a student break down a little in my lab this morning. She was the last one there and talking about things and it came up that she had been applying for this better job in the place she works for and the politics and way people were handling it hurt her badly (plus they abuse her in how much work she does for them and all...) in addition she's finding the financial burdens growing and making possible difficult changes coming. But this all kinda came out as I was discussing a few things from lab and cleaning up the lab and I could not do much as she struggled with the tears and talkig about it other than listen... but I felt so bad and it made me think about where I am... damn it I hate the f*ing "what can you do... nothing really" feeling, I have such a hard tme with that, harder than many things and i always trying to fight it and end up just as frustrated or making things worse.... oh to be callous, or like the so...

Been listening to a lot of music lately (as if that is anything new lol) but really been listening lately to help my mind through some things. Plus had a nasty cold or something kicking my butt and it still is. So anyhoos, been listening to lots of music and one song has caught my interest a bit – "Shadow of a Day" by Linkin Park. Not along the lines of their "harder" songs so this one has found more radio play. And yes, it has been around awhile, I just sometimes take a while to get to things lol Also funny weird is I've been listening to this song for a bit, before the recent string of things happened so it is like hmm was that foreshadowing lol – nah I just like music :P Amazing how you can say something and mean one thing. And three people hear you and hear three different things.... But I like this song because of the many ways one can interpret the lyrics, plus the music and lyrics are juxtapositioned a bit. What I mean is the music sets up one mood ...

Ok I am so stoked - Sarah Jane (from Doctor Who) gets her own series - Wheeeeeeeee - http://www.scifi.com/scifiwire/index.php?category=0&id=47970 She is my second favorite companion - Ace being the first and a major crush (oooo I always liked Sophie Aldred and yes I made a jacket just like Ace's and I think I even have it still - yes I am a Doc who geek - hehe Ok off to thoughts of Sarah Jane, Ace and well - ok yes off i go hehehehe PS - docwho holds special place in my heart (and also as you may have noticed my nickname) for many reasons - so this is just great for many reasons....

Ok been way too busy and barely managing to stay afloat – I shall catch up and update very soon, but I find this song describes where I am about a lot of things of late I especially like the lines I just wanna scream and lose control I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Yup learning somethings just aren't meant to be, are outta my control and so just gotta laugh : ) AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS "Runaway" Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range Looks like it's just one of those kind of days You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud And I feel so alive I can't help myself Don't you realize [Chorus] Throw my hands up and let it go Forget about everything and ...

Song and mindset for the day - now if I can just get there and stay there : ) Soak up the Sun by Sheryl Crow - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbsMPd_SkcU "Soak Up The Sun" My friend the communist Holds meetings in his RV I can't afford his gas So I'm stuck here watching TV I don't have digital I don't have diddly squat It's not having what you want It's wanting what you've got [CHORUS:] I'm gonna soak up the sun Gonna tell everyone To lighten up (I'm gonna tell 'em that) I've got no one to blame For every time I feel lame I'm looking up o I'm gonna soak up the sun I'm gonna soak up the sun I've got a crummy job It don't pay near enough To buy the things it takes To win me some of your love Every time I turn around I'm looking up, you're looking down Maybe something's wrong with you That makes you act the way you do Maybe i am crazy too [CHORUS] I'm gonna soak up the sun While it's still free I...

Julie's To Do List for 1/14 – 1/22 Panic, go insane, get into lots of trouble, procrastinate, more trouble, a bit of mayhem, an eureka/a-ha moment, did I mention panicking and oh yes, loving that insanity :P Seriously, next couple weeks lots swirling in my head, and then I have work stuff too : ) Let's see: have to prepare my Historical Geology lecture/lab and my Environmental Science lecture/lab for Cumberland College classes starting week of 1/21 Prepare Earth science lecture and lab for Atlantic Community College class starting week of 1/21 Prepare my Virtual High school class Advanced Web Design for the high school students for starting week of 1/21 Prepare little one for corrective surgery as part of her bladder/bowel program 1/17 and 1/18 Work through Distance Learning Unit with high school students and get them finished and on track – 1/14 – 1/22 And then there are projects at home, writing projects (I have got to keep my music and writing, only things that keep me gro...

Google maps says 2148 miles Mapquest says 2143.59 miles Yahoo maps Says 2151.76 miles MSN Maps says 2163.9 miles How far is it says 1860 miles as the crow flied That's how far it is from my house to El Paso I say that's too far sometimes : ( ah shit

and yes her can be used for many things, I even refer to life as her in some cases... :P

ok I just gotta get through to the 24th or so and get everything on my bleeping long todo list done and I may even keep my sanity along the way - sigh - just when things look like being smooth - el bumpo in el roado slamo in face-o ah wello :P I'll update better with everything going on - for now a new song to outline the sentiment of many things of late yes if not careful in addition to insane I may get a little worn down :-P http://youtube.com/watch?v=O8V6Y3YjBAI whew wheeeee life's funnnnyyyyyy :P Rachael Yamagata (there's actually a couple of really good songs of this CD I like) also visit here and catch some AWESOME replies and interpretations what these lyrics mean I loved what people said - http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Worn-Me-Down-lyrics-Rachael-Yamagata/EFE21233C53F46B048256EE70010F2F0 Worn Me Down Gone - she’s gone. How do you feel about it? That’s what I thought. You’re real DONE UP about it. And I wish you the best But I could do without it And I ...

OK – heard a song on the radio on the way home today that just tickled my fancy and fits in perfectly with today – I'll put the lyrics down below and see if you can guess (hint check out the title and the refrain and my longing to find someone who sings this to me :P – and yes it is a very egotistical reason, but then hey, tonight is all about me. Yup – I am celebrating my birthday and yes, tomorrow and the next day and Monday on my actual birthday I will go back to not liking birthdays because they mark another year alone and getting older alone and all that depressing shit. But for tonight – I am partying and enjoying myself. I splurged and started on the way home getting Boston Market – Sirloin broccoli and sweet potatoes, yum and ok not a total splurge but that is because I am saving calories for later tonight – hehe – but home I came and was good and exercised and colored (still working on my stain glass designs – going to put them up on this one glass door I have). Then later...

Just wishing everyone a happy start to the new year and man, I got a freak out in the mail today - lol - i got a letter that was for a supposed parking citation in Charleston SC - of course the issue was during the time and date of the supposed violation, I was working hard at my desk, in NJ hehe, luckily they typed in the letters wrong and the woman I spoke to fixed it all up, so that's set, but whew, a nice way to cap the year. Also got to get a bit more walking in and some more Ugly Betty, I really am liking that show. Ok on to some chores and work and then celebrating later - hurrayyyyyy

Well stopped at this flea market today – it was cool, reminded me of the Swap Meet in Tucson. I splurged and got a few knives – I got this Robert E Lee knife with matching watch cover/fob, Marilyn Monroe jackknife, a King Arthur knife and a Dragon Claw split blade with twisted handle – very nice. Then headed to the mall and got my hair cut. The stylist was nice. I asked about the story behind her tattoos and I found out she and her mom got matching ones, in fact they hace gotten a number together. I was like tttoooootttallly cool – That would be a neat thing to do and share. My mom and I shared college a little. When I started at the U of A – she went back too. Which was cool, we shared the Van Tran (did not have a car so used her handicap service). And because she was blind I read her textbooks for her onto tape. We only took one class together, a religion class. Her major was Writing, theology and psychology. Mine geology so we did not have many classes we could share. It ...

Christmas came Christmas went And it was a magically day, part of it. Watching little one enjoy the morning and hearing the squeals and all, magic, pure gold. Disney Xmas parade YAYAYAY one day I will be in Disney for xmas – yes another travel goal of mine – who wants to come with? I also caught up on sleep, that was my xmas gift to me. That and a few things I will do the week that T is gone with her dad – whewwwwww a whole week, so what trouble can I get into? PS – Kathy if reading this – I am already addicted to that damn Pirates game. The first video anything in this house and damnnnnn it – I already am hooked and so is T – you dorkass…… greatttttt hehe PSS – john played it a bit too until the you know who reminded him to go do something else hehe

ok so i was a bit negative in my last post. I should not be like that during the holiday - so I will delay anymore negative until the 26th : ) Still working through things, but a little better, I have a ways to go, but... I am thinking and trying to see things from all viewpoints, a major pain in the ass and work compared to wallowing in blah, which I feel like doing... but I am trying not to do that. For instance, I exercised and colored today - hehe yes both can be very soothing - i like coloring a lot actually I am currently working on this cool stained glass coloring book, i use sharpie markers. I like designs especially and so got this one which fits well - helps to let me think and focus and is soothing and creative too. tonight night Therese and I will be going xmas light viewing - we'll drive around, her with her cocoa and me with a yummy vanillia chai and listen to xmas tunes and do the rating - we rate displays and ys the more flashy and animated and moving parts and...

Well it seems i backed off when I didn't know I was, I thought I was responding to them backing off and doing a good thing I knocked someone off balance by something I did because they thought I meant something I didn't and it seems to have made things more messy and worse not better I don't know what to do next I din't know what to say to not be backing off or to be more to make them talk back to me I don't know how to go after what I want I don't know how to show more than friends I don;t fucking know anything anymore I just don't know and I so badly want to know oh god I do but i know this, I am not backing off, i will give space but i know what I want, I just need them to tell me what they want

Well, as the song on myspace profile says right now, I did it, decided to defy gravity and I took a leap, I mailed her a letter - what the lyrics of that song say i think fit where I have finally come after all this time... so now, I have to use that old proverbial tennis analogy - hit the ball into her court, now we see if and how she hits it back..... Defying Gravity (from the musical Wicked) Something has changed within me Something is not the same I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep It's time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap! It's time to try Defying gravity I think I'll try Defying gravity I'm through accepting limits 'Cuz someone says they're so Some things I cannot change But till I try, I'll never know! Too long I've been afraid of Losing love I guess I've lost Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost! I'd sooner buy De...

Well this follows on the heels of the other blog entry I just posted – ahhhh music Ok – I found a song today and fell totally in love, I mean this song made me cry and on all levels, not just the lyrics, but the musical score and the melody of the voice with the instruments and just… when I find her, this will be the song I give her, to dance with her at our wedding – that kinda deep song… ohhhhhh man I just… and to think I found this on a mix CD from a high school fundraising thing…. Mannnnnn This song is for you, out there, where ever you may be… may it find it's way to your heart and soul and express what love 'aught to be (yeah I just made that up hehe) Power of Love by Frankie Goes to Hollywood (yes the same group that brings you the song "Relax" – another song to dedicate to her, but that one is a bit more playful and frisky :P http://youtube.com/watch?v=LdnAbtIF3YM&feature=related ---------- "The Power Of Love" I'll protect you from the hoode...

Ohhhhh mannnnn I love music and a good musical is right up there with another activity that causes a cataclysmic orgasm (hehe) hmmm I wonder, doing said activity to the score of a good musical would be…. Mind-bending???? Hehe But Saturday went up to New York and saw "Curtains". I enjoyed the trip and the musical. Every year a teacher from my school plans a trip up to see a musical. I have seen Fiddler on the Roof, Spamalot and this year Curtains. We go up, make very, very merry on the bus (yummy poinsettias) and then have time for lunch or shopping, see the show and come home. I ate at a place called Beccos that had a tri-pasta menu. The one dish was yummy and unique, pumpkin ravioli made with cocoa floor (so chocolate look and taste). The venison rigatoni was good too (not eaten a lot of venison really). I like the comedy musicals a little more, and this one definitely provided that. I also found I really connected with a couple of songs, one in particular, Coffee Sho...