Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

Song and mindset for the day - now if I can just get there and stay there : ) Soak up the Sun by Sheryl Crow - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbsMPd_SkcU "Soak Up The Sun" My friend the communist Holds meetings in his RV I can't afford his gas So I'm stuck here watching TV I don't have digital I don't have diddly squat It's not having what you want It's wanting what you've got [CHORUS:] I'm gonna soak up the sun Gonna tell everyone To lighten up (I'm gonna tell 'em that) I've got no one to blame For every time I feel lame I'm looking up o I'm gonna soak up the sun I'm gonna soak up the sun I've got a crummy job It don't pay near enough To buy the things it takes To win me some of your love Every time I turn around I'm looking up, you're looking down Maybe something's wrong with you That makes you act the way you do Maybe i am crazy too [CHORUS] I'm gonna soak up the sun While it's still free I...

Julie's To Do List for 1/14 – 1/22 Panic, go insane, get into lots of trouble, procrastinate, more trouble, a bit of mayhem, an eureka/a-ha moment, did I mention panicking and oh yes, loving that insanity :P Seriously, next couple weeks lots swirling in my head, and then I have work stuff too : ) Let's see: have to prepare my Historical Geology lecture/lab and my Environmental Science lecture/lab for Cumberland College classes starting week of 1/21 Prepare Earth science lecture and lab for Atlantic Community College class starting week of 1/21 Prepare my Virtual High school class Advanced Web Design for the high school students for starting week of 1/21 Prepare little one for corrective surgery as part of her bladder/bowel program 1/17 and 1/18 Work through Distance Learning Unit with high school students and get them finished and on track – 1/14 – 1/22 And then there are projects at home, writing projects (I have got to keep my music and writing, only things that keep me gro...

Google maps says 2148 miles Mapquest says 2143.59 miles Yahoo maps Says 2151.76 miles MSN Maps says 2163.9 miles How far is it says 1860 miles as the crow flied That's how far it is from my house to El Paso I say that's too far sometimes : ( ah shit

and yes her can be used for many things, I even refer to life as her in some cases... :P

ok I just gotta get through to the 24th or so and get everything on my bleeping long todo list done and I may even keep my sanity along the way - sigh - just when things look like being smooth - el bumpo in el roado slamo in face-o ah wello :P I'll update better with everything going on - for now a new song to outline the sentiment of many things of late yes if not careful in addition to insane I may get a little worn down :-P http://youtube.com/watch?v=O8V6Y3YjBAI whew wheeeee life's funnnnyyyyyy :P Rachael Yamagata (there's actually a couple of really good songs of this CD I like) also visit here and catch some AWESOME replies and interpretations what these lyrics mean I loved what people said - http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Worn-Me-Down-lyrics-Rachael-Yamagata/EFE21233C53F46B048256EE70010F2F0 Worn Me Down Gone - she’s gone. How do you feel about it? That’s what I thought. You’re real DONE UP about it. And I wish you the best But I could do without it And I ...

OK – heard a song on the radio on the way home today that just tickled my fancy and fits in perfectly with today – I'll put the lyrics down below and see if you can guess (hint check out the title and the refrain and my longing to find someone who sings this to me :P – and yes it is a very egotistical reason, but then hey, tonight is all about me. Yup – I am celebrating my birthday and yes, tomorrow and the next day and Monday on my actual birthday I will go back to not liking birthdays because they mark another year alone and getting older alone and all that depressing shit. But for tonight – I am partying and enjoying myself. I splurged and started on the way home getting Boston Market – Sirloin broccoli and sweet potatoes, yum and ok not a total splurge but that is because I am saving calories for later tonight – hehe – but home I came and was good and exercised and colored (still working on my stain glass designs – going to put them up on this one glass door I have). Then later...

Just wishing everyone a happy start to the new year and man, I got a freak out in the mail today - lol - i got a letter that was for a supposed parking citation in Charleston SC - of course the issue was during the time and date of the supposed violation, I was working hard at my desk, in NJ hehe, luckily they typed in the letters wrong and the woman I spoke to fixed it all up, so that's set, but whew, a nice way to cap the year. Also got to get a bit more walking in and some more Ugly Betty, I really am liking that show. Ok on to some chores and work and then celebrating later - hurrayyyyyy

Well stopped at this flea market today – it was cool, reminded me of the Swap Meet in Tucson. I splurged and got a few knives – I got this Robert E Lee knife with matching watch cover/fob, Marilyn Monroe jackknife, a King Arthur knife and a Dragon Claw split blade with twisted handle – very nice. Then headed to the mall and got my hair cut. The stylist was nice. I asked about the story behind her tattoos and I found out she and her mom got matching ones, in fact they hace gotten a number together. I was like tttoooootttallly cool – That would be a neat thing to do and share. My mom and I shared college a little. When I started at the U of A – she went back too. Which was cool, we shared the Van Tran (did not have a car so used her handicap service). And because she was blind I read her textbooks for her onto tape. We only took one class together, a religion class. Her major was Writing, theology and psychology. Mine geology so we did not have many classes we could share. It ...

Christmas came Christmas went And it was a magically day, part of it. Watching little one enjoy the morning and hearing the squeals and all, magic, pure gold. Disney Xmas parade YAYAYAY one day I will be in Disney for xmas – yes another travel goal of mine – who wants to come with? I also caught up on sleep, that was my xmas gift to me. That and a few things I will do the week that T is gone with her dad – whewwwwww a whole week, so what trouble can I get into? PS – Kathy if reading this – I am already addicted to that damn Pirates game. The first video anything in this house and damnnnnn it – I already am hooked and so is T – you dorkass…… greatttttt hehe PSS – john played it a bit too until the you know who reminded him to go do something else hehe

ok so i was a bit negative in my last post. I should not be like that during the holiday - so I will delay anymore negative until the 26th : ) Still working through things, but a little better, I have a ways to go, but... I am thinking and trying to see things from all viewpoints, a major pain in the ass and work compared to wallowing in blah, which I feel like doing... but I am trying not to do that. For instance, I exercised and colored today - hehe yes both can be very soothing - i like coloring a lot actually I am currently working on this cool stained glass coloring book, i use sharpie markers. I like designs especially and so got this one which fits well - helps to let me think and focus and is soothing and creative too. tonight night Therese and I will be going xmas light viewing - we'll drive around, her with her cocoa and me with a yummy vanillia chai and listen to xmas tunes and do the rating - we rate displays and ys the more flashy and animated and moving parts and...

Well it seems i backed off when I didn't know I was, I thought I was responding to them backing off and doing a good thing I knocked someone off balance by something I did because they thought I meant something I didn't and it seems to have made things more messy and worse not better I don't know what to do next I din't know what to say to not be backing off or to be more to make them talk back to me I don't know how to go after what I want I don't know how to show more than friends I don;t fucking know anything anymore I just don't know and I so badly want to know oh god I do but i know this, I am not backing off, i will give space but i know what I want, I just need them to tell me what they want

Well, as the song on myspace profile says right now, I did it, decided to defy gravity and I took a leap, I mailed her a letter - what the lyrics of that song say i think fit where I have finally come after all this time... so now, I have to use that old proverbial tennis analogy - hit the ball into her court, now we see if and how she hits it back..... Defying Gravity (from the musical Wicked) Something has changed within me Something is not the same I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep It's time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap! It's time to try Defying gravity I think I'll try Defying gravity I'm through accepting limits 'Cuz someone says they're so Some things I cannot change But till I try, I'll never know! Too long I've been afraid of Losing love I guess I've lost Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost! I'd sooner buy De...

Well this follows on the heels of the other blog entry I just posted – ahhhh music Ok – I found a song today and fell totally in love, I mean this song made me cry and on all levels, not just the lyrics, but the musical score and the melody of the voice with the instruments and just… when I find her, this will be the song I give her, to dance with her at our wedding – that kinda deep song… ohhhhhh man I just… and to think I found this on a mix CD from a high school fundraising thing…. Mannnnnn This song is for you, out there, where ever you may be… may it find it's way to your heart and soul and express what love 'aught to be (yeah I just made that up hehe) Power of Love by Frankie Goes to Hollywood (yes the same group that brings you the song "Relax" – another song to dedicate to her, but that one is a bit more playful and frisky :P http://youtube.com/watch?v=LdnAbtIF3YM&feature=related ---------- "The Power Of Love" I'll protect you from the hoode...

Ohhhhh mannnnn I love music and a good musical is right up there with another activity that causes a cataclysmic orgasm (hehe) hmmm I wonder, doing said activity to the score of a good musical would be…. Mind-bending???? Hehe But Saturday went up to New York and saw "Curtains". I enjoyed the trip and the musical. Every year a teacher from my school plans a trip up to see a musical. I have seen Fiddler on the Roof, Spamalot and this year Curtains. We go up, make very, very merry on the bus (yummy poinsettias) and then have time for lunch or shopping, see the show and come home. I ate at a place called Beccos that had a tri-pasta menu. The one dish was yummy and unique, pumpkin ravioli made with cocoa floor (so chocolate look and taste). The venison rigatoni was good too (not eaten a lot of venison really). I like the comedy musicals a little more, and this one definitely provided that. I also found I really connected with a couple of songs, one in particular, Coffee Sho...

I wrote this Nov 26 while in the Atlanta Airport trying to get home after my holiday trip --------------- What I did today Ok – flying can sometimes be an adventure after waiting in Atlanta airport for 10 hours, flight having been cancelled the night before and now it is delayed and changing gates like crazy – well – I got a little giddy… witness below… Friend1: how is your luck going? me: wellll me: i had to change gates me: so i said poof this and i am eating soup now me: haha me: spicy enchilada soup me: and veggie sandwich :P me: i go check in a bit - they aew still holding to a 35 minute delay me: but at least i may get into atlantic city by say 1130 me: and home by 1230 or so me: if my luggage is there Friend1: aw me: eh i just hope i get home or get my luggage my lez zepplin all girl all zepplin shirt is getting a bit.. worn.... hehe Friend1: haha me: of all the days i pick to wear a decidedly "out" t shirt me: haha Friend1: lol me: but got nice looks and smile from ...

Ok I have been bad again, will try to write more. But I had one of the best thanksgivings I have had in many many years, thank you Kat for making it a happy time once again. ok i am stuck in atlanta, darn overflow and air traffic control or whatever, ah well the airline was nice and paid for a motel (this holiday inn is niceeeee) and even dinner and breakfast (the fruity drinks I picked up, but hey, since my vacation is extended... hehe Hopefully i will be back home by tomorrow night, although I found another definition of home this weekend and it was nice : ) work is going well, picked up aother lab section and those students will be.... trying, it will be hard going in and taking over the class as they have definite habits set... ah well.... ok, will check in more later... lots to share and enjoy, like going to the bathroom in a restroom that is pitchblack because electricity is out and snow for the weekend (yes it snowed in texas hehe) ok - laters alligators

A nice concert I went to the House of Blues in Atlantic City last night to catch the MySpace music tour. It was really good. I saw thePolysics, Young Love, Hellogoodbye and Say anything I had only seen Young Love before (saw them open for Erasure and I really like them – in fact ended up outta myseat and downstairs dancing to them). The Polysics were different – hard to describe, punk/hard rock with a touch of screamo and electronica and oh, they are Japanese hehe the accent the lead singers had, well it just added to the experience. Hellogoodbye kept changing instruments and such (including banjo, mandolin and a few different types of keyboards). The lead singer kicked off his shoes (like Cyndi Lauper always does) and made it feel like a fun music time. Say Anything was the end act and you could tell why, I enjoyed most of the songs and the feel kept strong even at the end of the night. I like the HOB venue as the upstairs seating is great and then downstairs I can go and stand in th...

Alright so the song on my profile right now (World by Matchbox 20) ranks in one of those always in my head these days – haven't gotten it officially yet (come on Now 26 hehe) but when I do it starts going on my mix cds :P I interpret it as kinda couple things – one the poor person is having a depression breakdown (I have stood outside, crying and had noooooo idea WTF why or how come)… then the song takes this and looks at it in the bigger picture and hey maybe the world is not quite as happy happy anyways Yes, a sorta depressing song, and no I am not quite in that mood - although I would compare this song to many Kurt Cobain and Nirvana put out trying to catch the "Live means nothing and nothing I do changes things and so blah I don't give a f*ck care attitude" so many have today – which this song is so upbeat it tricks you (and here some might analyze that is symbolic in that people can feel gray and yet be moving pretty fast and all cause life keeps them stepping ...

The video I posted on my MYSpace page is a part from the movie "Love, Actually" it is a romantic, sappy, british comedy very high on my list of like and I understand so accutely now Mark (the character) and this scene is one of the top scenes of all times that always makes me cry because, it is so much more like the truth than the others... to all the other Mark's out there, I hold up my glass with you as we cart our signs and empty hearts home. Or as he says... "Enough. Enough, now..." http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m2T5yfgsZ0

OK, I do not like the dentist. But then again unless you are the Bill Murray character from the movie (also a great musical) Little Shop of Horrors, then most people do not like the dentist. But ewww when the hygienist goes behind you, already been working on you with the torture device known as the little water pick thingy (a beautiful Julie word description – yes? :P) but then they take their implements and you hear "SCRAPE, SCRAPE" as they sharpen them on a stone behind your head as you cling to your bib reclined back, bright light over head. And then the little vacuum that sticks in your mouth and sucks you dry as you try not to swallow that ick and keep your tongue off the damp sucky thing… hmmm that sounded a little wrong there but still…. So other than getting my teeth all sparkly, things plowing along. The weathers been ok and work and classes keeping me busy but plowing along. Put up Halloween decorations – yay. Not sure what is up for weekend. Probably grading...