Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

Whew been busy hence the non updates - between wacky trip to Az to visit family (which I plan on rambling on in lurid detail to bore anyone who happens to read this to tears so go read something else if you no like...) Catching nasty head cold which is still kicking my butt although the spinny, dizzy, I am standing 25 feet from the rest of the world feeling is a hoot And dealing with some other things - been hard to major league multitask thus not been getting stuff done. today marks two things - john's birthday and the anniversary of our first solo date which in a way I always treated as our anniversary - I am a hopeless romantic sappy fool who goes for stuff like that he never remembers dates and I am not that great myself (please do not ask me to recite the ages and birthdates of all of my nieces and nephews that would be a horrible, embarassing mess) so I always was the one to do something for events and holidays and the like, like I said I was the romantic sappy one.... So whi...

You know – one of the sounds I like more than anything is lying in bed and hearing the rain hit the roof. Not like a thunderstorm rain but a steady, constant, pounding rain. The longer the better. I find it really soothing and makes me sleepy and I just like listening to it. In the new place I can really hear it when it rains in my bedroom and also in this additional room which is cool. I was only in there once but I know come summer… It is an added on, converted porch sunroom. So no heat or air, but the two sides are all glass and then in the roof it was one of those sunroof skylights. I was in there during a rainstorm once and the sound was amazing. So I plan on getting a comfy beanbag chair or something and during rainstorms just crashing out. Kinda lets my mind wander and then usually zone out. Like listening to music. I find listening to music helps me when resting too. I can not do that too much when people are around (although I have been known to get headphones) but wh...

Okay I find my life here of late slowly becoming slightly obsessed with a certain topic - human excrement. Yes, I just went ewwww while typing this myself. So do not read the rest of this post if you have a low comfort level regarding this topic - you have been warned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is not something I normally talk about, think about or anything about. It is something that all forms of life do (and in all forms at that - lol) and it is as natural as well as breathing, eating (the place this topic all starts - lol) and other certain topics some of which I also blush talking about... I find this is one of those topics that tests people's taboo and comfort meter - you know - those topics that some whisper, some shout, some find appropriate ways to joke and talk about this topic on occasion, some laugh at, some discuss casually and some never speak of sh*@ ..... I always laugh even though it is corny at the joke in Buffy about Willow spelling out a certain word...

LOL - that title is a direct result of listening to Ashlee Simpson La La song - hmm a word of warning perhaps - hehe anyways http://www.usatoday.com/tech/products/services/2005-03-16-bloghoo_x.htm more wonders of blogs and tech and the like keeping busy just realized I go to AZ for visit next Thursday - wow like a week away - kept thinking man is it foooorrrrrever and suddenly it is almost here - and of course already the drama starts... lets see sister #1 supposedly picking me up - very excited all set ring ring she calls and tells me okay she is doing new babysitting job but will come anyways just has all her kids (4) plus a 1 year old so she will be in parking lot, I call and then she come pick me up at front....oooookkkkkkk ring ring - next phone call - hmm timing is a little odd but oh I wanna pick you up sister says - I ask well when does baby you are watching get picked up - she says 5pm (and she lives like hour plus from airport cause she on way fricking other side of tow...

ME: okay that is weird ME: I ordered tickets and was supposed to be in like section 102 row R seat 10 ME: the confirmation says section 101 row A seat 8 ME: http://www.ticketmaster.com/seatingchart/16465/4755 ME: hmmm ME: I do not think I like the new seat ODDFRIEND #1: hmm can you reorder or switch? ODDFRIEND #1: and what it for? ME: or http://www.ticketmaster.com/seatingchart/16465/3964 ME: not sure which setup it is ME: it is to see Jimmy Eat World and Taking Back Sunday ODDFRIEND #1: hehe tweeter hehe ME: lol ODDFRIEND #1: tweeter ME: I get squished ODDFRIEND #1: snicker ME: hey ME: stop ODDFRIEND #1: tweeter bird ME: no snickering ME: stop ME: now that is messed up ME: damn it ME: :-D ODDFRIEND #1: eat world at tweeters ODDFRIEND #1: snicker ME: stop ME: please ODDFRIEND #1: hmm ok ME: I did not even ME: think of that ME: until you said it ODDFRIEND #1: and now you laughing ODDFRIEND #1: hard ME: yes ME: very ME: and worried about being smushed ME: and deaf ME: LOL ODDFRIEND #1: ...

Okay went to Philadelphia last night and saw a great show – It was Jesus Christ Superstar put on by one of the classes from Paul Green's School of Rock. Yes the thing talked about in the Jake Black movie (which I have not seen…) The school takes kids ages 4 – 19 and teaches them music using Paul Green's approach which is more of using classic rock and jam sessions as well as working on all aspects of the music world. So the troupe ranged in age from about 12-13 to 19 – and they did a wonderful job. They switched in and out on drums, keyboards and of course all sizes shapes and types of guitars electric and acoustic. So one group was on for one song, then they would switch out. This way all of the students got a chance to perform. Only the main singing parts were constant and boy were Judas, Jesus, Pilot and the cast good. I got to talk to some of the moms there and learned about the whole thing from their perspective and yes Paul Green was there and introduced everything....

http://www.usatoday.com/tech/news/2005-03-07-boss-vs-blog_x.htm - this article mentions how search engines can search and do search blogs Try this party trick in your own home and be amazed......... I tried typing in my nicks including what I use in this blog, my AOL nicks, and a couple of other nicks and my real name - I just used google.com to start with for today - and HOLY SHIT BATMAN - I came up when googled.... man you really can find anything out there and the lines of privacy blur even more - but as the one person in the article I linked to above points out blogs are public domain So why is it important to pay attention in school in English, math, history, etc.... why? Because people, you show your true level when you blog, write, talk, interact with people. Do you wanna come off as an idiot or as someone who knows themselves and what they are talking about? Most people do not need others to make them look like fools as more times than not they will do a spectacularly good j...

BTW my friend and I did enter our word in a slang dictionary so in my mind it is a real word - lol - http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=crankswirl&r=f From site - Crankswirl To talk or type a string of random,thoughts that seem unrelated because thoughts in-between left out. "That woman is looking totally hot. Hey did you catch that new way to wax a car?" "Hey dude what does she have to do with hot wax, you crankswirling again." "Was just thinking I'd like to wax her body in the back of my car." Source: docwho2100 , Feb 12, 2004 Okay - here is just an example of a routine average occurrence for me - how I managed to jump (crankswirl) from Vanessa Carlton to thinking about a character that would have voices that talk to them and they would not know what the voices are or such Here is how this wonderful connection was made - lol I was thinking about the tickets I have for a Vanessa Carlton concert later this month and getting psyched for ...

I'll start with, so far, the mother of all my hinge points in a way (again see my way earlier posts for my definition of a hinge point), a year so long ago (although this last year March 2004 – March 2005 is definitely another hinge point, more on that in another entry, if I remember – lol) January – I started Graduate school at the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia. Note to this – I had not been away from home before that except for the summer before for 6 weeks to geology field camp (isolated in the mountains no interaction save the others in the camp) and the summer before that as an intern at Smithsonian Institute in DC for two months (two other hinge points in my life again more on those later). Basically I had lived at home all through undergrad and we had no car growing up so we did not get to go places and living on welfare means we did not have money for trips.) So why hinge point? I had never been to Philadelphia before in my life – totally fucking true. I h...

From USAToday Online - http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/2005-03-01-depress-warnings_x.htm "Black box" labels warning that antidepressants can increase suicidal behavior in children should be on the drugs most widely prescribed to kids by mid-March, five months after the Food and Drug Administration ordered them, according to FDA documents. Approval letters went out in mid-February to the makers of Prozac, Zoloft and Celexa, Cruzan says. In mid-January, the letter went to GlaxoSmithKline, maker of Paxil and Wellbutrin. These five antidepressants are the most widely prescribed to children, according to IMS Health, which tracks prescription drugs. The warnings say that about 2 in 100 children taking antidepressants are more likely to think about or try suicide because they're on the pills. An FDA scientific advisory panel recommended the black boxes, which are reserved for the most dangerous drugs, after a hearing in September. Even Prozac causes a 50% higher risk of suic...

Ten People Ten people gathered today and spent an hour to decide the future of a little 4 and a half year old girl. Ten people They talked about her social skills and academic abilities and her physical abilities and limitations Ten People There were teachers, parents, therapists, psychologists, child study team members Ten people I sat there trying to stay focused and listen, trying not to stare at my hands and display those body language signs that would tell outsiders how nervous I felt being there, how upset inside I was, how I kept calculating the distance to the bathroom because I felt like puking at any second Ten People Each had their own style, some talked more than others, ex-husband made jokes that went over the heads of some and was kinda unPC (that's John for you making a comment that our daughter will be the kind of person in the future to be a great leader or be the one handing out the doctored koolaid (reference to the cults for those of you who that went over head)...

Well more of the icky white stuff assaults our area and once again I go all paranoid. PEOPLE Listen up – clean off your cars. I so hate people leaving snow on their car, getting in and driving down the road and then I get behind and it is like a fricking video game – first I get the blizzard as the loose small stuff comes off and fills my vision and messes up my windshield. Then the chunks start peeling off and it is like dodge'em – I have seen some major chunks come off these big SUVs and take out cows (okay not cows but take out road signs – I did see that, and wow I went OH SHIT as the speed limit sign fell over I also was laughing I have to admit) And watch the ice poop people – you know what ice poop is – that scum that builds up in the tire well and then periodically drops out it - is icy clumpy and usually blackish brown – ice poop. Those things are murder in parking lots and such – I have slipped and stumbled over a few – of course that is because I was not watching – bu...

FOUR to EIGHT INCHES the scarriest words in my vocabulary right now - lol Okay I hate snow. well I do not hate snow per se - just I do not like having to drive or go out in it. I grew up in Fla and Az and admit I can not drive in the stuff and I am a hazard on the road (plus my Saturn SL2 just was not meant to go off roading in winter weather - lol) - snow itself is not bad and does mean cuddling and laughing when you can have fun in it, just do not like having to drive in it.... I have had a few experiences driving in this stuff and all have ended not so great - including one time I was trying to make a simple right turn into my work and suddenly found my car doing a 360 so I ended up facing the total opposite way in the turn lane across the road - luckily was able to now make a left turn into my work (instead of the original right) and then huddled in the bathroom almost puking for 15 minutes until my nerves settled.... I have never done any winter sports (again growing up in warm c...

Listening to Bowling for Soup - Almost [3:26] - A Hangover You Don't Deserve Through one of the radio stations on www.live365.com (I like this Internet radio site – have lots of stations in my favorites list.) I like the song and this song is really all about hinge points (see one of my earlier entries for what I call a hinge point) like the song (lyrics are quirky and kinda really makes me think of Will (guess she was an almost hnge point - a kinda wish she was - lol) - sigh) anyways back to this and that

from a chat a bit ago.......................... ME: heyya ODDFRIEND#1: hey dude ODDFRIEND#1: so sup? ME: not much breaking my printer ME: :-) ODDFRIEND#1: um why are you breaking your printer? ME: well it got jammed and is now not doing anything lol ODDFRIEND#1: jeez ODDFRIEND#1: well you are software person and not hardware person... LOL ME: ok this sucks ODDFRIEND#1: hmm is it dead Jim? ME: damn it ME: :-) ODDFRIEND#1: um taking that as a yes ME: damn blinking lights you'd think it was frickin merry xmas ODDFRIEND#1: hehe have you pushed the blinking lights? ME: yes mom I turned it on ME: i pushed its buttons and now it is pushing mine ME: okay this is scary ODDFRIEND#1: hmm why? ME: it is like having a seizure ODDFRIEND#1: is it a possessed printer? ME: I am wondering ME: and I just put a new ink cartridge in which is what started this ME: well that and jamming a piece of paper ME: well it seems to be printing just seems to really shake more than I remember - lol ODDFRIEND#1: h...

Whew - four day weekends are great and awful – it like means the possibility of getting lots done and the reality of procrastinating until once again you are backed up against a deadline. I'm actually not too far behind really – just always lots to do and yet I have odd times like now where I really am not sure what to do – eh another paradox, the typical norm for me – lol Well helping sister (well now sisters) buy a car. This person bought a truck to help a friend who needs to pay for a townhouse. So the friend then needed to sell her car to get the money to help the friend. So I told my sister who could use a car and thus we helped the friend who bought the truck to help a friend to buy her townhouse and god this is sounding like that one children's song… the one that goes there's a hole, there's a hole, there's a hole in the bottom of the sea… and builds up like 20 things in a line by the end. You know I was thinking about that last night as I lay in bed – I t...

Okay so starting this thing as all fairy tales start – sickeningly sweet – although you know true fairy tales were horror stories and very graphic and rated R at least not the kind PG that we see so much of or the PC ones we see released… although I like those too… hmmm wonder which kind of fairy tale this should be Disney or Grimm…… anyways Once upon a time in a land far, far away, there lived a good and kind woman. And this woman had always eaten pie. She found the pie had changed over the years and did not really seem as sweet, and good, and fun as it had once. And then one day the pie baker did not come by, he had decided to make his pies for another and so the poor woman had no pie anymore. Well as she started getting back on track she found a new dessert, cake. Now as she looked at cakes, she found they were much more tasty than she had let herself believe. Actually she had looked at cakes before, a long, long time ago but had been swayed by the pie baker and so had not gon...

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I love music. Just about all kinds, love the way the lyrics and beat go together, love listening, reading lyrics, going to concerts, watching people react and interpret music - music moves us - drives us - tells so much about us. So let's see who have I gotten to see recently… um Finger Eleven (and three other local bands that opened for them) Michelle Branch Rooney (opened for Michelle) Muse The Zoltons The Dresden Dolls (most awesome show I have ever been to) Side effects (opened for the Dresden Dolls) Regina Spektor (opened for the Dresden Dolls) Bond (they were really good, classical music, trance beats, a nice stage show and four beauties) Fuzzy Bunny Slippers (a great cover band) Saw musical Rent on Broadway (Drew Lashley was lead and very good and cute and the person playing Angel – oh wow he nailed the role) Trying to think if that is it….. A lot of the concerts were in standing room mainly type concert venues so the tickets have been pretty cheap and always provide a great...

well just checking in with the usual depressing crap that gets me down and I have learned not to really share with anyone much anymore except kathy cause i do not wanna bring people down my one sis thinks the surgery was not complete and she still may be pregnant, I do not understand exactally what she is talking about (personally it sounds like spontaneous creation or something and my sister is definitely NOT the Virgin Mary, not close... - lmao) anyways so there are going to be more complications there - so instead of going back to get the one tube tied (she had the other removed because they found a dead fetus in her womb and an embryo was rupturing her fallopian tube - told you the drama never stops in our family - anyways) so now instead of just going to get the tube tied she may have to deal with more complications - will find out Monday I guess. The my other sister is most likely pregnant as mentioned before and she is at a point where health wise i worry and fmaily wise I worr...