Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

Whew been busy and not sleeping right - ah well. I think it is because I am so upset and tense about stuff at work (I was semi outed and now have a couple possible bad things going on because of that) and been worried about my sister and a couple other things. But saw Spamalot in Philly today and actually got to see Eric Idle too - my famous person encounter for the year - lol Also stopped at TLA Video and found some neat movies Two weeks till I visit Arizona - yay - need that and hoping to really relax. Got all excited in the Environmental class I teach Friday - I taught them how to make rain - lol I also walk all over the place when I teach, and wave my arms about and knock on desks and the board and stuff and just get all into it - I think I make them laugh - but in a good way. Speaking of laughing - Friday was the faculty in service at work - we had a speaker come in who had been a stand up comedienne and then taught traffic violation school - I learned how to bomb gracefully...

it sucks when you have to be afriad of doing or thinking something (1984 alive adn well) and when you suddenly get to a place where you hate everythign and one of the very important things that keep it all together and sane and is there when nothign and no one else is is suddenly something that makes you want to go and curl in your bed and cry and scream and not get back up and face people or work.what a week to have everything ick converge on the total 180 degree side - I saw the movie 300 and liekd it - at first i was oh damn this si a war movie and I do not watch those, then I was like oh man this is weird and then it became a story and then a fabulous myth - the way it was shot and the actors and the story - I liked the fighting scenes actually - well done.

The odd physicist was right - time is relative - fuck how three years has gone by so fast and yet it seems from another perspective to be the longest, dreggiest time in the whole world. Strange how certain events and "anniversaries" should not be so poignant after three years and yet in some respects they hit even harder with age..... I don't think this particular event is like cheese or certain alcohol in that it is not aging well with time, especially considering the lonnnnggggg and another L word three years it has been What a fuck next week is, ah well, time dilation where are ya when I need you One of my favorite quotes of all time - kinda fits with my curious/questioning nature and is a base foundation for who I am :P "The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries me...