Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

Just wishing everyone a happy start to the new year and man, I got a freak out in the mail today - lol - i got a letter that was for a supposed parking citation in Charleston SC - of course the issue was during the time and date of the supposed violation, I was working hard at my desk, in NJ hehe, luckily they typed in the letters wrong and the woman I spoke to fixed it all up, so that's set, but whew, a nice way to cap the year. Also got to get a bit more walking in and some more Ugly Betty, I really am liking that show. Ok on to some chores and work and then celebrating later - hurrayyyyyy

Well stopped at this flea market today – it was cool, reminded me of the Swap Meet in Tucson. I splurged and got a few knives – I got this Robert E Lee knife with matching watch cover/fob, Marilyn Monroe jackknife, a King Arthur knife and a Dragon Claw split blade with twisted handle – very nice. Then headed to the mall and got my hair cut. The stylist was nice. I asked about the story behind her tattoos and I found out she and her mom got matching ones, in fact they hace gotten a number together. I was like tttoooootttallly cool – That would be a neat thing to do and share. My mom and I shared college a little. When I started at the U of A – she went back too. Which was cool, we shared the Van Tran (did not have a car so used her handicap service). And because she was blind I read her textbooks for her onto tape. We only took one class together, a religion class. Her major was Writing, theology and psychology. Mine geology so we did not have many classes we could share. It ...

Christmas came Christmas went And it was a magically day, part of it. Watching little one enjoy the morning and hearing the squeals and all, magic, pure gold. Disney Xmas parade YAYAYAY one day I will be in Disney for xmas – yes another travel goal of mine – who wants to come with? I also caught up on sleep, that was my xmas gift to me. That and a few things I will do the week that T is gone with her dad – whewwwwww a whole week, so what trouble can I get into? PS – Kathy if reading this – I am already addicted to that damn Pirates game. The first video anything in this house and damnnnnn it – I already am hooked and so is T – you dorkass…… greatttttt hehe PSS – john played it a bit too until the you know who reminded him to go do something else hehe

ok so i was a bit negative in my last post. I should not be like that during the holiday - so I will delay anymore negative until the 26th : ) Still working through things, but a little better, I have a ways to go, but... I am thinking and trying to see things from all viewpoints, a major pain in the ass and work compared to wallowing in blah, which I feel like doing... but I am trying not to do that. For instance, I exercised and colored today - hehe yes both can be very soothing - i like coloring a lot actually I am currently working on this cool stained glass coloring book, i use sharpie markers. I like designs especially and so got this one which fits well - helps to let me think and focus and is soothing and creative too. tonight night Therese and I will be going xmas light viewing - we'll drive around, her with her cocoa and me with a yummy vanillia chai and listen to xmas tunes and do the rating - we rate displays and ys the more flashy and animated and moving parts and...

Well it seems i backed off when I didn't know I was, I thought I was responding to them backing off and doing a good thing I knocked someone off balance by something I did because they thought I meant something I didn't and it seems to have made things more messy and worse not better I don't know what to do next I din't know what to say to not be backing off or to be more to make them talk back to me I don't know how to go after what I want I don't know how to show more than friends I don;t fucking know anything anymore I just don't know and I so badly want to know oh god I do but i know this, I am not backing off, i will give space but i know what I want, I just need them to tell me what they want

Well, as the song on myspace profile says right now, I did it, decided to defy gravity and I took a leap, I mailed her a letter - what the lyrics of that song say i think fit where I have finally come after all this time... so now, I have to use that old proverbial tennis analogy - hit the ball into her court, now we see if and how she hits it back..... Defying Gravity (from the musical Wicked) Something has changed within me Something is not the same I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep It's time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap! It's time to try Defying gravity I think I'll try Defying gravity I'm through accepting limits 'Cuz someone says they're so Some things I cannot change But till I try, I'll never know! Too long I've been afraid of Losing love I guess I've lost Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost! I'd sooner buy De...

Well this follows on the heels of the other blog entry I just posted – ahhhh music Ok – I found a song today and fell totally in love, I mean this song made me cry and on all levels, not just the lyrics, but the musical score and the melody of the voice with the instruments and just… when I find her, this will be the song I give her, to dance with her at our wedding – that kinda deep song… ohhhhhh man I just… and to think I found this on a mix CD from a high school fundraising thing…. Mannnnnn This song is for you, out there, where ever you may be… may it find it's way to your heart and soul and express what love 'aught to be (yeah I just made that up hehe) Power of Love by Frankie Goes to Hollywood (yes the same group that brings you the song "Relax" – another song to dedicate to her, but that one is a bit more playful and frisky :P http://youtube.com/watch?v=LdnAbtIF3YM&feature=related ---------- "The Power Of Love" I'll protect you from the hoode...

Ohhhhh mannnnn I love music and a good musical is right up there with another activity that causes a cataclysmic orgasm (hehe) hmmm I wonder, doing said activity to the score of a good musical would be…. Mind-bending???? Hehe But Saturday went up to New York and saw "Curtains". I enjoyed the trip and the musical. Every year a teacher from my school plans a trip up to see a musical. I have seen Fiddler on the Roof, Spamalot and this year Curtains. We go up, make very, very merry on the bus (yummy poinsettias) and then have time for lunch or shopping, see the show and come home. I ate at a place called Beccos that had a tri-pasta menu. The one dish was yummy and unique, pumpkin ravioli made with cocoa floor (so chocolate look and taste). The venison rigatoni was good too (not eaten a lot of venison really). I like the comedy musicals a little more, and this one definitely provided that. I also found I really connected with a couple of songs, one in particular, Coffee Sho...

I wrote this Nov 26 while in the Atlanta Airport trying to get home after my holiday trip --------------- What I did today Ok – flying can sometimes be an adventure after waiting in Atlanta airport for 10 hours, flight having been cancelled the night before and now it is delayed and changing gates like crazy – well – I got a little giddy… witness below… Friend1: how is your luck going? me: wellll me: i had to change gates me: so i said poof this and i am eating soup now me: haha me: spicy enchilada soup me: and veggie sandwich :P me: i go check in a bit - they aew still holding to a 35 minute delay me: but at least i may get into atlantic city by say 1130 me: and home by 1230 or so me: if my luggage is there Friend1: aw me: eh i just hope i get home or get my luggage my lez zepplin all girl all zepplin shirt is getting a bit.. worn.... hehe Friend1: haha me: of all the days i pick to wear a decidedly "out" t shirt me: haha Friend1: lol me: but got nice looks and smile from ...

Ok I have been bad again, will try to write more. But I had one of the best thanksgivings I have had in many many years, thank you Kat for making it a happy time once again. ok i am stuck in atlanta, darn overflow and air traffic control or whatever, ah well the airline was nice and paid for a motel (this holiday inn is niceeeee) and even dinner and breakfast (the fruity drinks I picked up, but hey, since my vacation is extended... hehe Hopefully i will be back home by tomorrow night, although I found another definition of home this weekend and it was nice : ) work is going well, picked up aother lab section and those students will be.... trying, it will be hard going in and taking over the class as they have definite habits set... ah well.... ok, will check in more later... lots to share and enjoy, like going to the bathroom in a restroom that is pitchblack because electricity is out and snow for the weekend (yes it snowed in texas hehe) ok - laters alligators

A nice concert I went to the House of Blues in Atlantic City last night to catch the MySpace music tour. It was really good. I saw thePolysics, Young Love, Hellogoodbye and Say anything I had only seen Young Love before (saw them open for Erasure and I really like them – in fact ended up outta myseat and downstairs dancing to them). The Polysics were different – hard to describe, punk/hard rock with a touch of screamo and electronica and oh, they are Japanese hehe the accent the lead singers had, well it just added to the experience. Hellogoodbye kept changing instruments and such (including banjo, mandolin and a few different types of keyboards). The lead singer kicked off his shoes (like Cyndi Lauper always does) and made it feel like a fun music time. Say Anything was the end act and you could tell why, I enjoyed most of the songs and the feel kept strong even at the end of the night. I like the HOB venue as the upstairs seating is great and then downstairs I can go and stand in th...

Alright so the song on my profile right now (World by Matchbox 20) ranks in one of those always in my head these days – haven't gotten it officially yet (come on Now 26 hehe) but when I do it starts going on my mix cds :P I interpret it as kinda couple things – one the poor person is having a depression breakdown (I have stood outside, crying and had noooooo idea WTF why or how come)… then the song takes this and looks at it in the bigger picture and hey maybe the world is not quite as happy happy anyways Yes, a sorta depressing song, and no I am not quite in that mood - although I would compare this song to many Kurt Cobain and Nirvana put out trying to catch the "Live means nothing and nothing I do changes things and so blah I don't give a f*ck care attitude" so many have today – which this song is so upbeat it tricks you (and here some might analyze that is symbolic in that people can feel gray and yet be moving pretty fast and all cause life keeps them stepping ...

The video I posted on my MYSpace page is a part from the movie "Love, Actually" it is a romantic, sappy, british comedy very high on my list of like and I understand so accutely now Mark (the character) and this scene is one of the top scenes of all times that always makes me cry because, it is so much more like the truth than the others... to all the other Mark's out there, I hold up my glass with you as we cart our signs and empty hearts home. Or as he says... "Enough. Enough, now..." http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m2T5yfgsZ0

OK, I do not like the dentist. But then again unless you are the Bill Murray character from the movie (also a great musical) Little Shop of Horrors, then most people do not like the dentist. But ewww when the hygienist goes behind you, already been working on you with the torture device known as the little water pick thingy (a beautiful Julie word description – yes? :P) but then they take their implements and you hear "SCRAPE, SCRAPE" as they sharpen them on a stone behind your head as you cling to your bib reclined back, bright light over head. And then the little vacuum that sticks in your mouth and sucks you dry as you try not to swallow that ick and keep your tongue off the damp sucky thing… hmmm that sounded a little wrong there but still…. So other than getting my teeth all sparkly, things plowing along. The weathers been ok and work and classes keeping me busy but plowing along. Put up Halloween decorations – yay. Not sure what is up for weekend. Probably grading...

You know we all have traits and personalities characteristics that just don’t gel with most of the rest of the world. Does that mean then those are not normal traits and we should fix them? Sometimes yes, sometimes no IMO I am finding I have been very worried about my traits because I am so isolated and alone that I want to make sure if something comes along I don’t mess it up. Because one of my traits is to always assume that when people leave, things go wrong, or no one finds me and takes interest it is 100% my fault and the way I am. Is that true? Sometimes, sometimes it is only 50% and sometimes it is 23.4567% and sometimes it is 0%. Problem is, as all good "flawed" characteristics go, I can’t see past that to know when it is the 100% and I need to do something and when It s the 0% and I should let it go, take a chill pill and move on…. I know another trait of mine gets me in trouble – I am very much of the obvious a true MOO at your service (Master of the Obvious)...

Wow October 1 – funny how time flies, or drags like the heavy anchor attached to a boat. Hmm no idea where that analogy popped from, just kinda popped. Actually a lot of stuff has just been popping lately, good and bad, funny and very very serious. Some very serious thinking… like Madonna's song "Jump" serious…. Work is going along, classes hitting the first major test so will see how the information is flowing from me to students. Working on designing the Advanced Web Design class for the online high school I teach for and still waiting on the other at work to see how my day job changes – subtle changes at work too… lots of shifts, work, family, friends, personal… Shifts can be good but for me they can also be unsettling. Especially the subtle shifts. The ones that leave me unable to say in words what is different, what changed, but you get to a point and look back and go, "SHIT!" and then you can say what is different. And the thing I really get unsettl...

Well Molly has reminded me I have been lagging in keeping blog up to date so here Molly is a blog entry and since you said I should do a spicy blog. : P : D : > >:-) :-O I've been into Subway sandwiches - unfortunately there are not many out here - but I get when ever i can a 6" Veggie delight on italian herb and cheese roll with provolone cheese, green peppers, tomatos, cucumbers and - extra spicy jalapenos - ooooo very hot and spicy.... Wait - that isn't what you meant Molly? Um, hmm, ok, would it work if I said I like eating my Subway sandwiches in the nude? :P

I recommend you go see the video for the song - apologize by onerepublic - it's... interesting as is the lyrics and beat. Got tickets for oct 28 House of Blues Say Anything and Helloandgoodbye wheee May have a new gig doing something for FAA and the college and high school Working on Biology certification too by June I might have 4 certificates wheee Hoping to get out this Saturday to catch a cover band converted to a duo - see how they are. Also trying to keep afloat with different changes going on in Tucson. And hmmm, there are some other things too, but I'll catch them laters :P

I saw a fallen woman today. Well, I did not see her fall. I was driving home from lab and saw this woman on the side of the road as I was slowing for a traffic light. She was sitting on the side and looked like she was trying to push up. I kept watching in mirror as I stopped (and so apparently did others, the guy in front of me had to slam suddenly on is brakes as he prolly was watching and did not see the car stop ahead of him). I contemplated pulling over to ask what was going on and if she was ok, she grimaced at her leg as she stood. But it was not safe to really pull over and all those warnings went through my head. The idea of being jumped, used, it is a ploy, attacked, being sued for helping... all the things society has built up to deter being a good Samaritan heck we have GS laws now even.... So as I drove away, I said a silent sorry and also a wish and hope that if positions were reversed, I'd luck out upon the one who hasn't heard that being a good Samaritan i...

Ok I have been accused of not blogging enough... so look I am blogging (as in the scene from Clue for you Kathy) - "I am blogging, blogging, blogging..." CLUNK Where'd that candlestick come from. But as there is the word which means thinking about thinking hehe is there a word for blogging about blogging??????? Blogging is done more and more by more and more people... so I shall work on adding more blogs to the blogsphere and all those other wonderful words that now exist.... wheeeeeee let the flogging... oops um i meant blogging (blushy blushy ) begin :P

You know, as silly as this sounds, I miss making decisions with someone else. I mean there are pluses to being on your own and not having to work with someone else to make sure what you are or want to do is alright and fits and works. Yet… I miss the give and take, the discussion, sometimes even the disagreement and I miss… I miss reaching a conclusion together and seeing what you accomplished when you both worked together. Finding a different point of view, being exposed to new ideas. Ah well…

Well the trip out West is still going well. Although today is our last day in Tucson. I got a golden opportunity yesterday because my sisters are awesome people as well as a couple of other people. They kinda pushed and prodded (and in ms foxy’s and kathy’s case teased) and were patient and understood and so I did something I have not really ever done before and was a little impulsive. Well it turned out it is one of the best things I have done in a long time (along with this road trip in general). But I went to visit someone and ended up having a very good time and leaving much happier than I have been in a long time. I got to spend a half a day with a very awesome, beautiful, elegant (bitchin’ goth/rocker/insert other descriptions here too hehe) and above all else, classy Lady. Among the good time, she was patient and a little bold when I could not be bold and I am glad she was, not only did I like that (bold and spicy and dominate ooo yeah :-D but because of that she showed m...

So i made it to tucson, surprised my sisters and enjoying the time. Not doing a lot of fancy things or visiting places or sightseeing, more just hanging out at sisters' houses, letting theresa play with her cousins and enjoy herself (she gets lonely but then so do i...) I had stopped making entries because i wanted to surprise sisters and they already were getting suspicious. But the last leg of the drive was smooth (damn texas is a big state) and had an incredibly brilliant, brighter than the sun, bright spot - got to stop and meet someone i have wanted to meet for awhile. And while nervous and not sure of the impression theresa and i made, to me, it was worth every 54 minutes (give or take a minute) spent there and would gladly drive another 2100 miles and do it again... There are some museums and all in texas that looked interesting, there was a petroleum museum and all... and a meteor crater one too - may try to catch those, depends on timing. also a few places on way back t...

ok somewhere close to nashville and getting dog tired so this is short. Had great day. Stopped at this frontier culture museum ohhh os much to share there can not begin but one thing, it was hot, you walked around (up hill both ways) outside. I was wearing a black shirt and i rented this old fashioned red wagon you pull so theresa could ride... i did not feel as bad eating the pizza tonight after that workout - hehe damn ideas about this will be fun... it was fun for the first 10 minutes... and to top it off my camera was not charged - ahhhh bloop lots other moments to share - like running up and down a steep grassy hill at a rest stop very thankfull we did not slip and do a gainer down said hill - setting off the fire alarm in the hotel while i was naked form taking a shower (do not ask...) Ahhhh road trips

Well little one and i are in a holiday inn in Manassas Virginia - she is loving being in a hotel - that in and off itself is special and the trip - managed to make it through I-95... man that road is getting worse and worse... well tomorrow the trip relly begins in earnest - we shall see how we are by tomorrow but so far trip is an 8 out of 10 (a little behind but i took longer leaving then i thought hehe)

I know, not been updating in a bit - not updated story site, not updated blogs, not updated much... hopefully as things begin to settle I can change all that : ) Bridging program is moving into its final week, yay things have been up and down and quite a ride. Only a couple more weeks til school - still waiting to see how job and other pans out... Going to take a road trip at end of August - yay for getting away Saw the movie "Prey for Rock and Roll" Reading the reviews, people either hated it or loved it - like any good indie film. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0307351/combined I liked it for a few reasons - one, yes I like Ms. Gershon and I think her role here was well done... It's been out a few years, but it is hard to find. And while it has the macho chick and lezzie theme - that's not what I liked actually. I liked it was a woman who turned 40 and was going WTF am I doing here on this Earth, have I gotten too old and am I ever going to make my dream, be mor...

wow been very very busy and been in weird motivation head space lately which is good and bad weird - not sure what to think or do about a few things and now what i want to think and do about a few things but not sure I can do what i want... damn real life sometime - lol but it is august already and time marches on and it has been almost four years - there are some things i just wish time didn't march on regarding - ah well another day I will dream about certain sombodies coming in and looking past my outside and rather plain package and sweeping me off my feet because my inside is good enough... going to take a vacation the last week in August - getting in the car and driving - just driving and seeing what can be seen and what can be done and for a week, relaxing for once and who knows, maybe finding motivation along the way gotta get through august first - well hey one day already done - wheee

Ack – been buried in stuff – working on day job stuff for August Bridging Program and writing lots of curriculum plus talking to parents who have concerns regarding the program and their students – interacting with parents is one of the hardest things for me I am not a great conversationalist or have the best way with professional etiquette – I know it seems odd but I am not that good in those situations and dread them… Been teaching meteorology at Cumberland – just finished pressure making rain and winds now we get into the big stuff like hurricanes, thunderstorms, air pollution and such – wheeee Work on teaching my other class – physical geology – we are about to head into second test covering topics like groundwater, earthquakes and other fun. Caught some music – a few weekends ago at Wonderbar caught Kathouse and loved them – great cover and original band and a couple of the band members talked to me some, Then last weekend caught Lez Zepplin – a premiere cover band and such a show...

ok i do not take most of these but I took this one and find it interesting - do you think this describes me? :P http://www.quiztron.com/tests/color_is_soul_painte_quiz_23687.htm What color is your soul painted? Purple Your soul is painted the color purple, which embodies the characteristics of sensuality, spirituality, creativity, wealth, royalty, nobility, mystery, enlightenment, arrogance, gaudiness, mourning, confusion, pride, delicacy, power, meditation, religion, and ambition. Purple falls under the element of Earth, and was once a European symbol of royalty; today it symbolizes the divine. Click Here to Take This Quiz Quizzes and Personality Tests

Well, been a weird week and ups and downs Most of my friends are not around right now and I miss them (Hi Molly one of the few actually not on vacation or MIA) – but man I miss peeps Wednesday night I come home and find I can not access web pages.. I put a call into Comcast and they can not send a tech until Monday – I also took my computer into work and had a tech look at it who said it didn't seem to have any viruses or browser hijackers soooooo now I wait until Monday – until then I am using my sister's AOL account through dial up – whoooo that is frustrating and slow and phew I am spoiled – hehe I caught some music this weekend at least. Friday I went to the Somers Point Concert on the Beach series and caught Danny Eyre Band. They do covers of like the Beatles, The Guess Who, blues, funk, classic rock stuff. I've seen them before and like them. Also a teacher from school was there and we talked and stuff during the concert and that was nice. Then tonight I went to We...

I've been listening a lot lately to the group Erasure (electronica/pop/and more I really like them and Andy Bell is so fun to watch in concert). I was lucky to get to see them as part of the True Colors tour plus they just add a solo stop in NJ to their tour before they head back to Europe (I am so there in August). But two of the songs, well ok I could go on about a lot of their songs and prolly will along the way – but two have got me thinking lately, for very different reasons. They are both off the latest CD (a very nice CD and reason for their solo tour) although I have a lot of their other stuff too… One - "I Could Fall In Love With You" is a very wonderful melody and song and I love the video – one of the places that really drew me in – go to yahoo music or such and watch the video if you want sappy, romantic, sweet awwwww moment – yes I am a romantic sap and like that sort of stuff, hence liking the song and even more the video… http://music.yahoo.com/ar-314170-...

Oh wow – went to Philly yesterday to see the musical Hair and DAMN BABY it was F*ing totally bitchin' major A major W major E some ohhhhhh yeah and if it sounds like I am close to orgasm well after sitting through that experience I was – I think if I am ever in a relationship with someone, all they need to do is take me to concerts or musicals or shows I will beeeee very much so in the mood after But I ended up stage center in your face seats – seriously – they had this center extender – it actually came out over the seats – I was right in the middle in the first row in front of this – so the actors literally were in my face when they were right there on the end. In fact, the play is interactive and the actors always were in the audience talking – I got beads actually from one – and the wooden beads are now in my car :P I had not seen Hair before and man I do want to see it again, maybe even rent the movie. But the songs were very good and some made me really think and go hmm...

Whew – there and back all in one weekend. Made it to Vegas for my sister's 30th birthday. We had a lot of fun. We mainly walked around the strip and took in all the eye candy, eye sores and everything in between : ) It was good seeing my sisters and just being goofy, silly and even for one night a little sexy, heh. It really is amazing to watch people in Las Vegas, I mean other places have their charm. But there is something to be said about the combination that is Vegas. Watching people do things they normally wouldn't or judge others for doing things like that : ) Got a bit of thinking done over the extended weekend too. I've been really in a different place the last couple of months and overall, I like a lot if it. I have a couple of people to thank for being kinda giddy happy a lot of the time – so thank you. Got deathly ill last night and ended up not going into work – now I am major behind. Hopefully I can catch up. Very busy week ahead, but then things shou...

One of the fun parts of travel - being on a plane sharing M & M with strangers - hehe - listening to a boy ask his dad 100 questions - (and dad being silly and saying things like Santa Clause is driving the automatic train) watching people get toasted in the airport irish pub (which had a yummy Boxey thing which I tried) Ok more to come with my weekend of fun : )

Life is full of adventure Like driving in pouring rain that ahs been pouring all night, driving down the yellow strip in the middle of the road because it is the highest part of the road because the rest of the road is totally underwater, driving down teh middle yellow hoping no other cars are coming the other way and finding the middle is still under water enough you wonder if your Honda Civic is going to stall.... Ah, life's grand adventures

What interesting pathways life weaves. I find my boss calling me in to tell me my job may change next year, and now I must do much to prepare for that. I find a friendship taking on a new perspective as discussions, activities and more move in ways I have not moved before and I find it fun and exciting and interesting adn will take it for whatever it is and where ever it goes. I find my little one nears the end of her school year and her next birthday and i reflect on her next steps and how she is changing. She will begin a new program this summer for her condition. My co-worker is out this week, a death in her family and I find that takes me down pathways. My sister has chosen to take a dark pathway and this time, for the first time, none of us are being pulled along, we can't be, but we can wait and keep the way back open. Oh so many things to think about and reason through and explore

OK this cheesy, bad, bad movie made around 2004 to spoof old bad cheesy sci fi and horror movies – well I can not stop laughing – hehe If you like spoof and cheesy and appreciate old scifi and horror – I recommend – also a movie with a geologist as a hero – I could have been in a situation like this – see geology is funnnnnnnnnnnn – I love the Betty Armstrong quote – date a geologist and find excitement The Lost Skeleton of Cadavra Betty Armstrong: Well, I suppose if I had wanted a safe life, I wouldn't have married a man who studies rocks [giving directions] The Farmer: Stay on this road here, past Dead Man's Curve, you'll come to an old fence, called The Devil's Fence. From there, go on foot till you come to a valley known as The Cathedral Of Lost Soap. Smack in the center is what they call Forgetful Milkman's Quadrangle. Stay right on The Path Of Staring Skulls and you come to a place called Death Clearing. Cabin's right there, can't miss it. Dr. Paul Arm...

Well just turned in the last of my grades for the college classes i teach - I have a break from those until mid june - still have the day job and other things to keep me busy somewhat but now I need to find something to do with my free time - man what should I do to keep outta trouble :P

OK - this is just so cool - we should all celebrate :) http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2007-05-01-numerologists-sunday_N.htm Ok this is not cool - why does evil exist? (and yes this is not a heavy definition of evil and there are many more eviler things than this, but in my world it still is eeeevvviiiilllll...) hmmmmm http://www.explabs.com/nailedin30_1.asp

OK not a long blog today – hehe – going crazy – my three college courses end around the 12 of May plus my online VHS high school course – their projects are due the 8th so I have a buttload of grading - which is always hard and slow for me – and finishing up other things with in the next few weeks – DAMMMMMMMNNNN and PHEWWWWWW and I am so celebrating when this semester is over – it has been very long for a number of reasons related to work changes, social changes, family changes and just a lot of stuff Saw Meet the Robinsons last night – it was cute – little one and I had the run of the theater for a bit, the theater overall was empty – I guess with no big releases yet no one is up for a Sunday movie – but I liked the music – also started teaching little one how to throw popcorn up and catch it with your tongue - hehe ahhh those important life skills you pass on… next week I am teaching her the all important skills of sliding down a banister (hehe j/k that is not until she is 7 ;-)...

Ok – it seems most of the few people I call friends are either sick, not feeling good, having problems, stressed and depressed and life in general has brought out the nerf bat and begun beating on them So I dedicate, as a reminder I am always around and willing to do anything I can, a couple of songs… not sure they will help y'all right now, I wish I knew what would or you could tell me – I would do it in a snap – I am like that for my friends… So for you out there who read this – please take the lyrics to heart and know I am around and willing to help however Call Me When You Are Down (by Le Click – yes I like techno pop :P ) Call Me When You Are Down (by Le Click – yes I like techno pop :P ) Call me when you're down Call me when you need someone Call me when it's rough And you think that there's no one Call me when you're down... Love just for the understanding Things that love carries, what we're demanding Listen to the heart thats beating Forget about lust a...

OK - been ultra busy with work, school and took last week to go on vacation to Arizona to visit family as well as head out to Disneyland for a few days too - will have pictures and some comments as soon as I get caught back up with work and into more of my normal routine. I saw this bumper sticker on theback of a car while in Tucson and liked it (yes I like bumper stickers and love reading them and yes I have some stickers - actually they are in my back window, but I have some on my car too) Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens. - Jimi Hendrix - I also went and looked up more quote by Mr. Hendrix - I really like a bunch of them here are a few and the site I pulled them from I used to live in a room full of mirrors; all I could see was me. I take my spirit and I crash my mirrors, now the whole world is here for me to see. I was thinking too fast. It seems like a person has the tendency to get bored, because he always wants to try to do all these accomplishments. I'm gonna put a cu...

Watched the movie The Prestige – very interesting movie - kinda weird - liked Christian Bale and Michael Caine - not much of a soundtrack..... magic, illusion, reality and lie - how fun.... Some neat quotes Every great magic trick consists of three acts. The first act is called "The Pledge"; The magician shows you something ordinary, but of course... it probably isn't. The second act is called "The Turn"; The magician makes his ordinary some thing do something extraordinary. Now if you're looking for the secret... you won't find it, that's why there's a third act called, "The Prestige"; this is the part with the twists and turns, where lives hang in the balance, and you see something shocking you've never seen before. Nikola Tesla: Things don't always go as planned, Mr. Angier. That's the beauty of science. Alfred Borden: You went half way around the world... you spent a fortune... you did terrible things... really terribl...

Some random thoughts from my Friday - listening to Gwen Stefani's latest CD in the car driving to drop of little one. The 6 and a ½ year old explains she liked the first song on the CD (Wind it Up) which the kid calls the yodel song because the song starts with Gwen doing a take on yodeling and using a bit from a kinda Sound of Music Like yodel song. She says she likes it because it is an action song. I go it is fast? And she is no, it has more action. I realize the song changes tempo a number of times, goes from the mock yodel to a rap kida, to other forms of singing and uses a few bridges – oh man it does have more "action" – Now I will listen to songs to see which have more action – do you know action songs? - helping a student who rushes in frantic to try and convert his PowerPoint for a presentation today from his version to one that works on the school computers. We be stylin' as we got him set – go us! - judging the science fair at the high school I work ...

Whew been busy and not sleeping right - ah well. I think it is because I am so upset and tense about stuff at work (I was semi outed and now have a couple possible bad things going on because of that) and been worried about my sister and a couple other things. But saw Spamalot in Philly today and actually got to see Eric Idle too - my famous person encounter for the year - lol Also stopped at TLA Video and found some neat movies Two weeks till I visit Arizona - yay - need that and hoping to really relax. Got all excited in the Environmental class I teach Friday - I taught them how to make rain - lol I also walk all over the place when I teach, and wave my arms about and knock on desks and the board and stuff and just get all into it - I think I make them laugh - but in a good way. Speaking of laughing - Friday was the faculty in service at work - we had a speaker come in who had been a stand up comedienne and then taught traffic violation school - I learned how to bomb gracefully...

it sucks when you have to be afriad of doing or thinking something (1984 alive adn well) and when you suddenly get to a place where you hate everythign and one of the very important things that keep it all together and sane and is there when nothign and no one else is is suddenly something that makes you want to go and curl in your bed and cry and scream and not get back up and face people or work.what a week to have everything ick converge on the total 180 degree side - I saw the movie 300 and liekd it - at first i was oh damn this si a war movie and I do not watch those, then I was like oh man this is weird and then it became a story and then a fabulous myth - the way it was shot and the actors and the story - I liked the fighting scenes actually - well done.

The odd physicist was right - time is relative - fuck how three years has gone by so fast and yet it seems from another perspective to be the longest, dreggiest time in the whole world. Strange how certain events and "anniversaries" should not be so poignant after three years and yet in some respects they hit even harder with age..... I don't think this particular event is like cheese or certain alcohol in that it is not aging well with time, especially considering the lonnnnggggg and another L word three years it has been What a fuck next week is, ah well, time dilation where are ya when I need you One of my favorite quotes of all time - kinda fits with my curious/questioning nature and is a base foundation for who I am :P "The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries me...

Welllll - I am in Arizona as my second oldest sister is getting married tomorrow. There is lots of comedy, drama and ooohhh and ahhs (and holy shits and no F* ing ways too) and I am staying in my nephews room, a shrine to Hilary Duff - I will not comment on that any more at this point :P The rehearsal yesterday was weird. My sister knows weird people - I was loving watching everything. Then the rehearsal was livened up as my one nephew fell in the little fish pond - OMG it was so funny but not - you know - luckily they had extra clothes and such but mannnnn funny to watch my sister turn beet red and get even more nervous before her wedding - hehe - of course I had been with the kids as we looked at the snails and fish and stuff... but then I went off and look one of them falls in :P Our aunt and uncle from Florida came out and are driving everyone crazy (and man the aunt is nosy - we had bags from shopping and she was going through them and my sister's fridge and e...

when on the way to teach my lab at the college this morning (at the wonderful time of 7am so i can get to my lab for 8am start) I had to stop in the middle of the road as a flock of turkeys were crossing the street - yuppers about 16 of them and I could not tell if they were wild turkeys or if one of the farmers on the farms I was driving by would end up being a little miffed was - ok drum roll please - as their turkey's had flown the coop - hahahah yes I am so stupid and dorky but I think I am funny :P watching Art school Confidental - that is a weird movie and has parts that make me laugh out loud - :Pour contract at work was approved - dental, eyecare and a small raise - hurray...... now if my job is just there for next year.....

OK damn it either snow all out or nothing - this just enough in the morning and then evening when i have to drive and get tense and nervous and shout obscenities at the mirror and my jack cat and wonder woman doll and guitar pin in my car as i try to drive is just starting to get old... and now maybe ice shit is coming too and not when it would keep us out oh no it is waiting until I am OUT - again I say let it come but just do it at night so in morning I am trapped... crap stuff... actually again it is not the snow per se but that I have to go and drive... feck, fook and the other f word.....

OK - I understand the ideal of free speech, democracy, and commercialism. I also understand nothing is free, especially the Internet, which we all take for granted as being free, but it is not, we all pay for it. BUTTTTTTTTTTTT - there are different ways to pay and I have one in particular I am getting a little peeved at. Some sites support themselves by allowing ads and spam and the like. My email accounts are all full of junk as is my regular mailbox and answering machine - ok - I deal - BUTTTTTTTTTTT I pay for the site I keep my story website on through my cable Internet..... I ALSO PAY for the tagboard I have at the bottom of my site so people can leave me comments about the stories I and others wrote or other things (PS feel free non spammer people to leave messages and comments and discuss said stories and so on) Recently I have noticed a trend - spammers have created a new spambot - I know there are programs that people run and it sends the spam out into the world with a few key...

OK - I understand the ideal of free speech, democracy, and commercialism. I also understand nothing is free, especially the Internet, which we all take for granted as being free, but it is not, we all pay for it. BUTTTTTTTTTTTT - there are different ways to pay and I have one in particular I am getting a little peeved at. Some sites support themselves by allowing ads and spam and the like. My email accounts are all full of junk as is my regular mailbox and answering machine - ok - I deal - BUTTTTTTTTTTT I pay for the site I keep my story website on through my cable Internet..... I ALSO PAY for the tagboard I have at the bottom of my site so people can leave me comments about the stories I and others wrote or other things (PS feel free non spammer people to leave messages and comments and discuss said stories and so on) Recently I have noticed a trend - spammers have created a new spambot - I know there are programs that people run and it sends the spam out into the world with a few key...

Well had my first Environmental science lab today, I think it went well. I really felt the lecture I did went well and the students seemed to get into the activity. Of course I am probably the only one getting excited and upbeat at 8 in the morning (yes the lab is 8 – 2 although not every Saturday) talking about graphing and the metric system and independent variables and dependant variables and yes, well stop whispering geek already… :oP So lab should be fun as well as the lecture, the class so far seems to be a good group. Of course I need to see how many students come back next week. I also found a most annoying item – the current McDonald's happy meal has this line of toys from a cartoon series. And one of the toys is a character that if you push its arm down, it makes armpit fart noises. I kid you not. And let me just say, it is a very, very evil thing….. Been keeping busy at work, managed to push out a few projects so almost have some breathing room. There are a few...

Right now I am watching Joe Vs the Volcano - it is one of my favorite movies. I find I like weird movies - not thoughtful or thought provoking or cinematic art or such... but weird dork movies. My favorites include things like Drop Dead Gorgeous Joe Vs the Volcano Hudson Hawk So I Married an Axe Murder Love, Actually Spoof movies in general (Vincent Price was in a spoof movie or two, can you name them) and such - actually I like a ton of movies and will not list them here but the currently being watched movie - dang I just laugh out loud and stand in front of the TV and the dialogue damn there are great quotes and I like it because you have to watch it - I mean I usually multitask and do this and that and that and this - but Joe is as much visual as it is audio Actually if you watch it with the sound down it tells a story and then listen only you get a different but neat story too (yes I have done both) But the allegory, allusion, illusion, and visual references in J V t V is incredi...