Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

Whew – I made it Spent about 26 hours on the road driving over 1000 miles down to Orlando – it would not have taken me quite as much time, but the traffic was baddddd in a few places I literally managed about 20 miles an hour at best. Plus I needed a little sleep – so I did pull off and stop at a few rest stops for cat naps. Add in my small bladder and the fact I tend to drink more on a road trip as it helps with the driving and such. Saw a lot of neat stuff on the trip – there was a bathroom experience – whew – just remind me never to go off the beaten path or further then two feet from the Interstate regardless of how bad I have to go…. It is interesting the way rest stops are designed - I also found the pattern of where they were were part predictable - always one right after crossing a state line and totally, why did they build two 40 miles between sometimes and 70 or more other times - I also liked watching the different trucks and what they were hauling. Did pack in a couple hou...

Man does that suck to be in Denver airport right now - to be stuck in an airport or such when trying to get home - also it is hard kinda for me to really grasp and understand how backed up something can get when it is still 3 days until Xmas and yet this clip says some people will not get to where they need to go - wow - brings home how reliant we are on certain thngs... http://www.weather.com/multimedia/videoplayer.html?clip=4911&nav=84&collection=topstory&from=wxcenter_video

Started sunday by taking little one to Storybook Land - this is a small place in Southern NJ that has a mixture of rides and storybook land character houses and things - it's been around for over 50 years and has that quaint charm - although little one likes the rolelr coaster (this time we only did it about 7 times including one 3 in a row stretch) and the tilt a whirl (also known as the "this is gonna make me hurl" - which I managed not to do). We saw Santa, saw the lights and visited every single character thing (she loves those almost as much as the thrill rides). Monday i visited the doctor for follow up and received great news - my blood work was perfect - no sugar probs, no cholesteral and so on. The blood pressure was down too so only have to monitor that. The rest of this week will be filled with grading, reports, training and assorted work as I round out the week before the holidays - then off until Jan. 3 - trying to cook something up to take advantage of my ...

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In the car this morning I was running over all the things I have to do today and in the near future Stuff like..... Create web page with SAT prep resources for teacher and student training Teacher workshop - I am training teachers how to use their content to create SAT like questions to help students prepare Get new FTP addy to upload pages Prepare Bridging program report (summer program for incoming 9th graders I am the director for) Prepare report on how students did on a questioning test Get a blood test the doctor ordered Get my blood pressure taken Try to stop by the post office Prepare tests for geology classes Figure out grading for labs for my classes Need to check the discussion board and grade drafts for the high school online class I am teaching Need to pick up a scooter for xmas gift Need to get a Pollyanna for work Need to…. I realized in the car I always have projects waiting for me – no matter how hard I try and yes I complete things and yes the semester is winding down...

Ok so taking a brief break here at work listening to my live365 radio account The last few songs New Found Glory - It's Not Your Fault 13 Stories - Christmas Makes Me Hot Evanescence - Weight of the World Alanis Morissette - Crazy Lostprophets - Rooftops Carbon Leaf - Life Less Ordinary Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On I listen to a lot of different types of radio stations through Live365 and like the variety it offers (where else can you find a radio station that broadcasts nothing but the different songs and such from different Disney theme park attractions – haha yes I know you are asking who would listen to that :-D Finished my Alternate Route Education classes last night – no more of those until January. Now to make it through the rest of my classes and work. Two weeks Then I took off the 23rd through the 2nd of January to recharge – I am not sure yet where I am going but I hope to do a bit of a road trip – anyone have suggestions or wanna join in – come along the more the m...

Never Alone - BarlowGirl I waited for You today But You didn't show No.No.No I needed You today So where did you go? You told me to call Said You'd be there And though I haven't seen You Are You still here? Chorus I cry out with no reply and I can't feel You by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here and I'm never alone. And though I cannot see You and I can't explain why Such a deep, deep reassurance You've placed in my life oh We cannot separate 'Cause You're part of me and though You're invisible I'll trust the unseen Chorus I cry out with no reply And I can't feel You by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here and I'm never alone We cannot separate You're part of me and though You're invisible I trust the unseen Chorus I cry out with no reply and I can't feel You by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here and I'm never alone

ok i wrote this while on my trip - I am now home and trying to get through a number of things - an update on those things later, maybe, if I can kick my ass out of the incredible low funk i have fallen into - but here's the earlier rambles nonetheless ----- Ok – so I think there is something in the Arizona water – or this trip and being around my family if getting to me or I really am bonkers and it is just starting to really come out… but whatever the reason… man I had a bunch of weird dreams the last few days – this morning I had at least one which I remember very vividly. I was in a car trying to park it in a parking garage. A very crowded and oddly configured garage – some parts outside, some covered. And I drove around a lot… then I probably slipped in and out of deeper sleep because there is a gap and then I remember from the dream that now I was walking or on a golf cart/bicycle thing. And I was trying to find a space. But check this – I’d walk or ride about one to two l...

Phew - been keeping busy and yet not - hard to explain that Let's see - some what's been going on things finished reading Prozac Nation - I liked the book a lot - going to get a few of the books/movies she mentions in the book Went to see Angels and Airwaves Saturday at the House of Blues - they and the two other bands - The Sounds and Envy On the Coast were great - plus had an encounter, so to speak, that I thought only happened on TV - I was in the House of Blues's bathroom - I left before the encore to beat the rush - so no one was really in the upstairs bathroom - so I am in there and then two pairs of feet come into the stall next to me. No big deal - happens a lot especially towards the end of the show as people often a bit buzzed or such. Well then I hear one person say, no way just stand there and then the second person goes, "I just wanna watch" - ok that gave me pause - not so much the words but the fact the voice was definitiely MALE - oookkkkk I am n...

It is official - I have ISS (I come in a bit under the height limits they mention in the article) - who knew - LMAO - although the driving a car thing is always an issue - as is those fricking top shelf items in the grocery story although 50,000 per inch - I'd rather see that money go somewhere else IMO ahhhhhhhh the wacky world http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/2006-11-12-short-debate-cover_x.htm

Well - went to the hair place in the mall and told them half an inch. She confirmed, half an inch trim off the bottom. At the end I found her half inch meant two inches and now everyone says have a "cute" haircut - ugh Plus I got a nice discussion on sushi - not that I really eat sushi. Was listening to my mix CDs on the drive home from class and the Madonna song Jump came on - man I so feel like that song - I so wish I had a place or person to Jump to : ) actually I would not leave here just for myself - little one needs her father even if I don;t have much here - I think right now the only thing that would make me leave is if I met someone and things developed from there - yeah looks like I am in So. NJ for the long haul - I think that is another reason I like to travel so much - unlike the song I can not Jump to another place - but at least like a bungee jump I can experience a temp thrill even if I snap back..... On another note - I have been thinking for a long time abou...

Ok - I managed to find an answer to something I found curious today. I took my environmental science and physical geology classes on a field trip today. We went to Wissahickon park in Philadelphia PA today to study metamorphic rocks, Appalachian Mountian geology and river geology and water pollution. It was butt ugly cold in the morning - but a sunny day and it got up to the 40s and 50s by the end of the trip. I had a good showing and we had fun - I made those students walk all over and hopefully learned something - if nothing else they all were picking up rocks and stuff. But on the drive back through Philly, a cop car passed us and I looked and it said Postal Police. even though it was a cop car with lights and everything it had the postal symbol on it. I was WTF postal police... so after some stereotypical jokes about postal workers needing police and such - I made a note to look into it and I finally did and found this - http://www.fopnlc2.org/ Who knew such a position exsisted - n...

I hit 1000 miles today - whew I am zooming along

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Just a quickie - been trying to get through the day, week, so on. Managed to get up to Wissahickon yesterday to chek the directions and the field site - it had just been raining so leaves and stuff were everywhere. Hopefully next week when we do the field trip it will not be wet and ick and we will be able to actually see the rocks and such.... Gotta a bit of work this week to push through - hopefully I can get it all done. Got tickets to visit my sisters for Thanksgiving. I also am flirting very seriously with the tattoo idea again. I just might do it yet : ) Halloween is Tuesday - prolly just going to be my smiley face emoticon dracula for halloween - no daring-do from me - ah well - been trying to watch movies and such - not felt like a lot else. Got season three L Word-YAY can not wait to watch that I have remained spoiler free - that is the only show that almost makes me consider getting Showtime just so I can watch it. Now if I could just find someone to snuggle with and watch...

Wow what a pair of days. I brain-fried/mushed myself on Friday. I started with a couple hours of typing up this case study for this NAF project through my day job. I was using Census Bureau data, student data and crunching other statistics to try and get this case study written for these people. Then the Business Services teacher had MOUS (Microsoft Office official tests) left that expired after Friday. So I took, I a row, three 50 minute tests -MS Word, MS Excel and MS Access – I passed all three – Whoot, go me, but I had NEVER opened the 2003 version really of any of those programs – LMAO – I went in cold and sat and took them. If you are not familiar – you have 50 minutes to do 17 – 19 multiple part tests that are practical – format this, hyperlink that find a formula that does that, etc. Damn I really think I multitasked and switched topics too much and radically - I am still not sure how I did it (plus still have this drat lingering cold thing) Then 20 minutes after complet...

Whew - weekend went by fast Friday I started getting sick, a nice head cold complete with weariness and blahs (I so do not need sick blahs on top of my mopey lonely blahs). But managed to make it through class (we hit plate tectonics and earthquakes in the environmental science lecture). Then I tried to sleep as the nose continued to clog. Saturday was marked by Envinromental Lab Saturday morning (Volcanoes - hurray) and then I slept some - although also managed a call as my home internet is still up and down - they did not have an appointment open until Tuesday but hopefully they can find what is wrong - unfortunately it seems to go up and down so that may be harder to find.... I slept some after class and then saturday night went out to see this play/musical "The Mystery of Edwin Drood" _ OMG OMG OMG I loved it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I prolly can't but am going to try to see it again before they end. It is a local company that put it on but it was great. It is a musical ba...

Well making it through a rainy midweek. Got told they are having trouble locating the new car I wanted so i am still trying to convince my Saturn not to poop out on me. i actually was good and cleaned a lot out and vacuumed and everything. The way my life runs if they do not hurry and find my car I am going to end up having to reclean my car, again - lol I embarassed myself today at work. One of the teachers stopped and noticed the pictures of my little one and said how much she looked like me, I kept the I hope not comments to myself as I have a bad self ego problem and feel I am not a looker and thus do not want her to look like me, but self issues aside, i said, honestly, if you compare baby pictures of me at that age we would look like sisters. The teacher replied oh well if you ever bring those pictures in please let me see, i love looking at pictures.So as she started to leave I called from my office, "Oh sure, hey i have a great one of me naked in a Kentucky Fired Chick...

Ok - so yesterday I finally did something I have been meaning to do for over a year. I had a couple of big comforters that ended up getting messed up about a year ago. They would not fit in my little rinky dink washer which meant I would need to go to a laundromat to wash them. Well I shivered through last winter and kept never finding time to go and get them done. Well yesterday I did it - I washed them and all my blankets and damn, it only took me a little over a year. I seem to find ways to put a lot of stuff off, but hey i have warm, comfy, clean comforters at least - hurray. Now about that sorting project I've been meaning to get to....

Getting kinda tired lately but hey it is october - I am waiting for them to deliver my new car - yeah I bought a new car (I'll put up pictures of my old car and new car on my website as soon as I get my new car) - I need to find peoples who are willing to let me use them as an excuse to road trip ANY TAKERS - I would love a place to go or company for a road trip - just give a holler - I need a break and then I can show of the new car and get all excited - lately not had much of anything to get excited about - been kinda just one day after the next. I think some of it is the fact a couple dates are coming up and November is just around the corner and I hate november for many reasons - there are good things too - just so many yuck dates to deal with fall in that month I was really impressed with the answers the high school students in my web design and internet research class came up with for the assignment - What Do You wonder About? And then some of the high school students in the...

I am teaching a lot of online courses this semester and i started my move toward high school teacher certification and am teaching a high school class online as well as my college online classes (so two college courses online and a high school course) Because I am going for alternate route for the high school teaching (which is a big pain and a very weird thing because I have a degree in education and have student taught but I have to do this alternate route because of the certificate I am going for and well other stuff but I will not go on about alternate route now - save that for later) But as part of the process I am finding myself having to compare and contrast online to face to face environments a lot. As such I am wondering more and more about the world of online communication both professionally, academically and of course personal - the personal as I have many online friends and yes I have many online crushes and even a few deeper than crushes although those are all one way - I...

My sister sent this poem to me - not sure where she got it - but it is nice and really really kinda captures some of my thoughts and feelings on a certain...subject (person) ah well in other news - the death bell is sounding for my Saturn SL2 - this last check up yesterday came back with a list of over 900 plus the radiator has cracks, not leaking yet but that is going to go and.... and wellllllll I guess I will start looking for cars... not the best time in the world with the possibility of my job changing in terms of my salary and having to pay for the alternate route and everythign else - but hey I may finally come into the 20th century and have a CD player in the car - although i have all my tapes and love them :(I need to get out an find some music - I think this friday after class I will try to do something even if it is to drive straight to atlantic citygo into one casino and get one drink and hear only one lounge songer song... :P I actually just need to find someone to get ...

So where is my focus these days? Soemtimes it is on the stuff going on at my work and how it will impact me and changes are coming. Sometimes it is on trying to juggle way too much but always looking for more becuase I don;t quite feel I have found what or who I really would like. Sometimes it is turned to thinking up a plot, or story or a fantasy that I wish could come true. Sometimes I focus on the fact fantasies are the nicest and cruelist because they have a base in fact and have the ideal of what you'd like to happen and yet will not. SOmetimes I focus on trying to listen to the rain or take a moment to count the clouds or pehaps watch the construction outside one of the windows at my work. Sometimes it is on how little focus I have and how I multitask and ramble and always thinkng, moving, restless. Sometimes it is on how the combination of lyrics, beat and timing makes a song one I know I want to hear again, press the reply button, again, press the replay button and again. ...

My mother use to sing two songs a lot – so much I actually learned the lyrics much like one would learn a lullaby – "Richard Cory" and "I am a Rock." I always kinda let it go and never thought about those songs or why she sang them much because of my maturity level and also because my mother had a long history of mental illness and I learned to take many things she did/said in that context…. I find myself these last few weeks/months suddenly with crystal crisp clarity understanding these songs Fuck it all anyways…. Current music: Linkin park - Meteora

Been keeping busy - some of the things are things I like being busy because of and many are not. Still looking for that special someone to keep me really busy and to help when they are busy but plugging along through life. Did manage to walk to the comic book store today and take a few minutes just to enjoy the nice weather, some geeky fun and such. Been behind in reading but getting back into that even with the busy just to keep me balanced... I hope between music and writing and little things like reading sometimes I can not get too off or depressed or thinking about things I shouldn't. Will be starting up some classes for alternate route Monday assuming the union does not destroy what it is I want to do.... the classes are 4 hours of who knows what to help prep me to become a teacher. Most people take alternate route because they are going into teaching but did not take education classes or do student teaching so they take this year long series of intense classes as an "...

Whew - been ultra busy and such - need to take time to update things more fully, like wrap up of Dragon con, my new busy schedule (packed-a-rama), and ramble thoughts on this that. I have a ton to do tomorrow but if I schedule things in a good way and stay focused (which has been hard lately, i have so much to do but motivation sees to wan and flounder) I hope to be very productive tomorrow well today... alright off to slumber and hope I get things set and perhaps even have a longer entry next time, maybe even filled with something more than my quest for gf and griends in general ;-P

Well Saturday was a hooottttt Started up and early to pay parking fee for next day – van is still there – I am stylin' Then all other staff members save my sister are passed out in their room so Kathy (sister) and I go and show up for first panels and get those running. Then we head over to the walk of fame and GAWK at the stars (OMG he looks old – is that really that dude) – but we went because I had one thing I really really really wanted – to meet Yvonne Craig and get "Batgirl's" autograph. SHE LOOKED SO GOOD and was so nice. I bought her book – form Ballet to the Batcave and will post review when done – then I had her pick her favorite Batgirl on a motorcycle (oh damn those words just could have described certain fantasies of mine) and she signed it for me – and I shook her hand and chatted about a necklace of hers and stuff – OK OK FanGirl moment over :-P Then some more panels and Kath and I stopped in a pub for some pulled pork and reubens then we helped with ...

Well another wonderful day comes to an end (although already time is blurring and it is hard to remember exactly where and when to end one day and begin the next :-P Managed to get to the conference and find all the F*ing hotels had their parking full already because Fargin people not staying in the hotel parked there. So I am a paying guest and have to trek three plus blocks away and leave my rental in a non secure lot – I am pissolaed. But got checked in – the room is way up on the 26th but it is a nice view and clean and spacious – plus I get green tea shampoo samples – lol The panels for today were not too bad – started with a general session and then a good session with C. martin and George Low form the Space Ghst cartoon – George Lowe is hilarious. The managed to run and grab some more stuff form the van before heading back to make sure the adult swim (Cartoon network) Ventura Brothers panel was a go. Managed to fit in a new game called Tonsro or something (I'll get the offic...

OK so a 15 hour plus ride from Philadelphia was interesting got to see one of my friends from the online group I write with which is so cool. I love meeting people and especially those I know or from the online groups I am in. We ended up getting our staff badges, checking out the anime/animation track room - which was somewhat surreal as there were two guys int here at the tables with the mikes just using the mikes and playing - when we came in they started doing comedy, it was weird. Then spent time learning how to make a character for the Lord of the Five Rings RPG game. Tomorrow the conference starts and the fun should really pick up. Will have lots more to say, if sober and not busy running trying to make sure the track panels go alright, tomorrow :P

I got Angels and Airwaves and The Fray CD - I really really like them both!!! Also got Cyndi Lauper tickets - not sure if I mentioned that earlier :) I made A&A The Adventure one of my ringtones - I love music :P and it makes me wonder, how do people choose ringtones?

a couple of songs played on my internet radio station and they just seem to really express many feelings and thoughts right now - ah well Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars [4:25] - Eyes Open Simple Plan - Untitled [3:58] - Still Not Gettin' Any But on to drabble I Wish I Had a Moment With You (dedicated to N, but she will never know) Visually few know when the Moment occurs. Most find they can not say exactly when, how or why the Moment happened. Most can, at some point after the Moment, sense that it has happened. But even with thorough analysis, pinpointing that instant is elusive. Some can recognize the steps before, leading to the point of no return. And there are those who identify the resulting after effects, the ripples that spread and forever change those involved in the Moment. So what can you do? Before a Moment you know who you are, where you belong, what you want and how to get through the next day. After a Moment your entire world and perspective is sitting in the trash an...

OK sometimes I just get a little confuzzed when dealing with my youngest sister - witness a recent chat me: heya Mysister: heya back me: how goes? Mysister: slow me: how come Mysister: just is, this is not kat btw me: i know Mysister: sure u did me: i am talking to kathy Mysister: read the box sweets me: what? Mysister: never mind u lost me me: what? me: what did you mean read the box sweets? Mysister: I thought you were asking if I was kathy and I had just typed that this is not kathy so I was telling you to read the box. lol get it? me: I get it, stop chatting with some hoochie mamma and getting distracted Mysister: lmao I dont chat with the hoochie mammas only the hoochie daddas lol me: yeah sure Mysister: tell me something what do you think would be a good song for me to put on myspace? something that represents me. seein as you know music so well me: that depends on your mood me: and I am not sure i know any songs called hoochie mamma Mysister: haha HEY, I am not nearly as big a h...

Man, ok that is one harsh but good movie. The fast forward sex scene had me laughing and was intriguing. The milk bar, ok something about those white chick furniture pieces just spooky. The "science" treatment was - okay the eyeball things if the actor really had that happen - ouchie momma And the ending… makes you go hmmm And of course the attitude toward sex and violence overall… and then you wonder as you laugh and go through the movie reacting if the movie is not more of a future prediction then we care to think – I mean in one of the Halloween Simpson eppys they have Bart dressed as Alex…. I also know I am not getting all of the imagery and such I will look it up on web sites later tonight. Although if anyone has comments or ideas or tidbits regarding Clockwork, let me know Hmm let's see revisit one of my top all time favorite's Drop Dead Gorgeous or on to the next rental I have, an HP Lovecraft horror movie – or I have Adam and Steve and V for Vendetta (whic...

Movies movies movies Ok watched "She's The Man" on recommendation from a friend – man I groaned and groaned, although there were some funny lines and Amanda Byrnes does look good as a guy. I also liked the overall storyline, fairly straight forward although the ball bouncing thing scene was kinda cute and yes Nikki, the chick fight scene was good, man I winced when she did the face plant. I like the soundtrack and wanna look into getting it! Next watched batman Forever – ok it was supposed to be Batman and Robin cause I wanted to see Uma Thurman and Alicia but I goofed in the rental store (I did not look, just grabbed, sigh) will get batman and Robin tomorrow - Riddle me this - and hey At least I got a Drew Barrymore cameo - nice Next up – A clockwork Orange – which I actually have never seen before. And yes my mind is in a funk to be jumping from movie type to movie type such as I am…. maybve it'll keep me distracted - or at least make people wonder about me and m...

Ok took a break from movies cause last night I did something different i decided to do my version of a pub crawl - instead sitting all by my lonesome and moping that I am all by myself - I went out and moped - no just kidding I parked At one end of the casino strip in Atlantic city and started wandering teh casinos (crawling) with a mission - instead of going from pub to pub to drink I was going from casino to casino looking for music I started in the Taj and found a lounge act and caught a couple songs before they went on break - then headed to resorts - tried to find the tabou night club gave up and headed to sands - stopped at the Swingers bar but they were not going to have a band until 11 (the middle one did not show) so finished my orange vodka screwdriver and headed to Ballys - there I found the Blue Martini bar and enjoyed this 11 man ensemble that was a Motown cover (everything from Aretha, Marvin, Low Rider and more) stayed for an Orange rush martini, two sets and cute bart...

OK let it be knownthe movie "Pirates" is a baaaaaaaaaaaaaad movie and I LMAO I mean lines like may your balls turn into breasts or I think I shit my pants and of course more pirate groans and moans than well a shipfull of drunken sailors....Oh My Gawd Although the lead Jules, she was a hottie :P And as the movie man warned - "This is not the Pirates of the Carribean, it's a HARD R - I guess he meant hard body R - OH MY GAWD - :-P http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0477457

Ok Aeon Flux (my second viewing) was good. Like the actress and the plot and kick butt action scenes always get me going. I actually have not seen the animated series or read anything. I think I may have to rent the series and check it out. Hmm that makes me think about the different books that make it to moives and movies made into books and all the good, bad and ugly associated with that.... Took a break from movies but on to next

Ok long week, blah week, lots going on, but... rented a bunch of movies for tonight and weekend so movie one is done - "Almost Normal" I liked it - the premise is different, a little formulaic but who cares and liked the music and the actors/actresses. It was cute, sweet and the boy gets the boy in the end, makes me go awww. on to next movie

It is often oddly fascinating what things catch's someone's attention and holds it. Some people watch operations and such for hours on Discovery health. Some watch court cases and other real TV type things. Some turn on sports channels and watch marathons and other repetitive sports/challenges/etc. My mother would tune into the NASA channel which would 24/7 show the space shuttle when it would be up in space they are adding a couple new building s and other construction to the high school here. I stood just watching some of the construction fascinated. The problem at hand is new pipes being put in. A guy is using a big claw backhoe machine to tear up the cement there. I was amazed at how he used it almost like an extension of a hand at some points to pound on the stuff trying to break it, then tear and claw it up and finally gently (yes I use that term here because) it almost looked graceful sometimes the way he maneuvered the huge claw to place these huge slabs of heavy...

They say everyone makes mistakes, the key is to learning from and moving on said mistakes to make the future better. I made some mistakes and right now I have learned it hurts, it hurts so very fucking bad. I hope to learn the other stuff later, once it stops hurting Right now pretty much everything feels fucked to me because some shit and fuckedness went down at work Thursday. Actually work has been getting shittier and shitter the last few months and well it hit a bad point yesterday - I have never cried at work like I did yesterday and I still feel... See right now my family life is really shitty as some of my sisters are having bad problems and things are fucked there. My one sister continues to screw her life and is getting into alcohol, is going out with a new person every night almost, not taking care of her kids and the list goes on. Another is having major financial and family issues and the third is having family issues and barely hanging on - plus they all live in Arizo...

Caught Broad Banned Saturday night and enjoyed that - I stayed for all three of their sets because they played down in Cape May which was closer than the venues they usually play in. I even got a bottle opener keychain - most cool : ) they played at Cabanas which is too small but a nice place although I hate the parking situation down there. I try to go there though especially during winter months when they stay open - so much closes up because of the tourist seasonality. I actually try to frequent any place that stays open, plus I know it is discouraging for bands to play to five people - trust me I have been one of the five people at many a session.... I always appreciate it though and listen and enjoy... Only have three more classes to teach for the summer class and the third class consists of the final test - which then I have to grade and get grades in - but whew, that will be all complete. I think I may be teaching Environmental science this Fall in addition to everything e...

I think for the first time ever or in a long long time I truly hate my job. No not talking about stress or not liking the pressure or something someone said or such, no, i truly hate my job so badly right now it hurts, hurts and for the first time in a long time I wish, i wish I did not work there. Hopefully this mood and day will go away very soon - it is mixing with everything else and just... i really really hate things and my mood and certain aspects of my life right now :-/

This past week, weekend and the week starting has been really long and tiring and seems not to be getting too much past the unmotivated blah moving through this day to get to the next and not much else. Some major stuff going on with two of my sisters has me in a dark, deep rut. Especially since those issues seem to be bringing my thoughts to my own blah issues and it just all combines into a rut. On other topics - had the house inspected for termites and while I am free, have major ant issues and such so will be getting the house sprayed Friday. had a great, funny conversation with my one sister (the one not having bad, major issues right now) - it included (and do not ask me how we got on this) but included discussion of jelly boob things you can buy at Walmart - that came about because my sister had told my other sister one day it looked like her certain features had been "sucked in" which led to many jokes and thus the discussion of the ways to enhance a certain featur...

HAHAHAHAHA I just conquered the garbage disposal - when I came back about three months or longer the disposal had stopped working - I could not figure out why and went ahead like a good busy persona dn kept putting it off - but tonight got frustrated and was totally in and under the sink and I found a red little button on the bottom of the thing all hidden away - I pushed it and WHAAAALLLLLAAAAAAA I have shredding capabilities again - I am so smart I am so smart SMRT I am so smart (sung in Homer simpson's voice) - of course no one better mention how I could have tried to find the manual three months ago and read over how to try and reset the thing - anyone say anything and the blonde fickle fingers of tickle fu will descend upon you. ;P I am so smarttttttttttt

Whew whee---- this week has been hectic and well hectic. I got back from the NAF conference Sunday. I spent the day trying to get things settled back around the house - make up for lost petting time with kitty kat, do laundry and prepare for Monday's lecture for the class I am teaching (Monday was Water properties and chemistry and oceanography). Then getting back to work, I start the bridging program Monday so have been spending all week trying to get all the million nutty details set (like on my way home today I stopped to buy soda and paper plates and notepads and other assorted things and still have things to do.). Plus my co worker is having a lot of family things popping up and she will not be around as much. I actually did not even get to my phone messages until Wednesday :P I had to teach two workshops at my day job this week - Using Multimedia which was all about issues surrounding multimedia from file types and legal issues to creating multimedia yourself. Then today I...

Well the NAF conference here in Detroit is wrapping up – we fly out at 7am tomorrow – the conference was good. I just wish I had a better mindset of late to fully enjoy. But I did enjoy a bit. Loved the GM and OnStar tour – they were really nice and I loved the tour. Got a neat paperclip note holder thing too from them :o) Made it yesterday to the Romantics – that was awesome – they were good – I could actually see them (I will be posting my Detroit pictures this week and I have little white blips that represent the romantics to post – lol) I also played eye contact kinda with a cute girl the whole time. She was working the merch booth and I am standing over in the main area. It was an outdoor concert with the stage way up and then people brought their lawn chairs and stuff – it is a summer series. Well I'm just standing in amongst the chairs and I always am dancing. See when I go to concerts I watch others just stand or sit and watch maybe swat a little or nod the head – I d...

Well attending the NAF conference (I am the school's NAF director - we have three academies) in Detroit MIchigan this week. Naf is a business oriented education model so it is a different kind of conference - they really pay attention to details and more of what works in business... I presented today - talked about how our school uses online learning. Then in afternoon facilitated a database project design session. Worked with teachers to create lesson plans for teaching databases. Also volunteered to work on a focus group to help set up a Director's manual as well as working with the IT department on staff development. I enjoy meeting people and talking about what they are doing, and I do have a few ideas and projects to work on for after this conference, so it is very productive. Detroit, what little I have seen, is actually nice. I hope to explore a little more the next few evenings before we leave on Sunday. Last night after conference meetings got to go on a riverboat ...

this is part of an AOL IM convo I had with my one sister while I was writing the previous journal - warning - it is totally raw, not too funny, kinda a little glimpse into places I usually don't look (and showcases how immature my grammar and thinkign really are) and prolly only funny to my sister and I.... but eh another slice of life... Sister: ookay kinda back right Sister: grrr brb Sister is away at 1:28:54 AM. me: ok well still here and still talking to no one except you : ) Auto response from Sister: I am away from my computer right now. Sister returned at 1:30:42 AM. Sister: awww maybe you should go to sleep Sister: hehee me: naw i can't Sister: its cool me too Sister: I am just so pissed of f right now me: I can not make myself work on something which is bad I have so much to do kath me: but not really sleepy me: why are you pissed tell me again Sister: I am sorry me: it is ok I am just moody as hell and have so much to do and just can not get focused me: maybe the conf...

Well had an ok weekend. Friday was weird as about 10am I am sitting in the bathroom at my work trying to do, well… that bathroom thing and I hear this weird sizzle, zap, funky electronic type of noise and the bathroom light dims, goes out, comes back and then I hear this weird almost whooshing/running water sound. And the noise came from the wall right next to the place I am sitting Ok next paragraph very guttural, crass and dirty but a kinda funny thing------ Luckily I am sitting down on the porcelain throne already as I got scared. It is total dark in that bathroom except the light – no exterior light. Plus I do not like the dark and such… and the noise was so sudden and load and it was right there on the other side of the wall which is like one inch from where I am sitting, with my pants pulled down so feeling very vulnerable…. So, given that, I would have pissed my pants in fright, but in the weirdest universal moment of being in the right place at the right time. I ended up pe...

Wheeeee - if all goes well I am scheduled September 12 to have braces removed... now fi i could get a date to help me celebrate said date then I'd be really date happy - lol But for now I am date giddy - no more braces - ohhhh yeahhhhhhhhh update later on other interesting and odd stuff of late (like how I was in the bathroom when our school lost power today andwhat happened.... hehe

Someone commented about liking LOTR better than the Sopranos pinball. And yeah, I agreed for the most part with them. The reason I say that is because one of the things I like about pinball is a good game tells a story and so you are not only playing but helping write the story - yeah I know that is a weird thing :-P Although Sopranos is a little easier in terms of making the shots needed to advance - for Sopranos it is you advance in family ranking in LOTR you advance through the three main stories - but Sopranos is IMO more formulaic making it easier to get into a groove although the one place I usually play (they only charge 25 per game for most games - I like that place) But yeah today I played actually Sopranos, Monopoly (that was the first time and I'd play again but the game was broken somewhat – actually the Sopranos one was too) but also played Theater of Magic and Lord of the Rings (the place I hit on the boardwalk after my walk has about 15 – 20 games and all for abou...

Well last night was a major miss by more than a mile. My first Physical Science class crashed and burned. I got thrown off at the getgo as I was given teh 7th edition to prep and the bookstore students had the 6th. Then I find about 1/3 of the students could not get textbooks because the bookstore ran out. This is a summer class and our first exam is wednesday. Then I messed up, went to fast, jumbled a couple of problems in a row and basically lost a lot of respect. Then the students in this class are either have not had math and science for 10 years and need lots of slow reminders or just out of high school had this class and are bored Sh*tless. So that all led to me making it through to 8:45 and feeling very shitty. And still dragging today (I think the fact I am um hormonal right now and about to swing into something along with other shitty thoughts on other topics is not helping me get rid of this dour mood) But I will put on a stiff upper lip, regroup over the weekend and push...

Most Fun I attended a really great concert Saturday. It was at the Festival Pier in Philadelphia. I had never been in the area. The venue is kinda sucky and kinda okay. Sucky for a short person, overall a nice outdoor concert space. I mean it is a stage with a large open space surrounding it. I liked the area, was not aware of its existence, may have to go back again to try some of the different places. I got there early so went to Dave and Buster's, which was cool – I played a lot of the basketball shooting hoops, I like shooting hoops, not very good but I like it. No pinball though drat it (although I did get some pinball in Sunday when I did my walk on the Boardwalk). Also did the shooting gallery plus made a mess of things playing The Lost world – I kept shooting the freaking humans – it is like get the hell out of the way I am randomly shooting everything on the damn screen – lol. Standing in line for the concert was funny listening to the people around me comment on a...