Just Tripping Along The Freakazoid

Okay had to see meaning of quote I ended last entry with Viva La Loca (cause I like that song but like another song with a french phrase that I embarassed myself with because I did not know the meaning and got into a funny conversation with someone.... I had to check so if I am warbling this chorus in the middle of somewhere I will not blush) - in freetranslation.com - this came back I LIVE THE LUNATIC So hey it works for me :) I am a Lunatic and living so whew that fits and if I ever find that special woman then maybe I will type to her Adorar al loco :-D

Starting with a big WAHHOO – got my contract for next year – I have my job for another year – the job that leaves me frustrated and exhilarated, overworked and getting to do new things. I love it but find it very hard and overwhelming quite often. Also working on these curriculum things with teachers – whew some teachers are very very worried about writing the curriculum and I am actually scared because I have never done this – it is like doing the trapeze without a net – I have no f*ing idea what to do really or where this will end up Hmmm side ramble – I have never done a trapeze – I'd love to try but I have a feeling it would end up like this awful experience at Epcot Center in Florida Epcot has the different countries and each country has a ride or theme activity and then a restaurant and such. Well in Norway or such they have Viking themed stuff. One thing is this Viking ship playground. Well I had to go on it cause well I go on all the playground stuff at Disney as well a...

Ever get to a place where your heart is going in two opposite directions and screwing your soul and mind over as it rips you apart so bad you physically hurt? Yea? Me too... Ari Scott - Fill Of Love (written by: Ari Scott) fill of love all i ever wanted was to be accepted and all i ever wanted was not to be rejected and all i ever wanted was just some love love love love love love love love all i ever wanted was an explanation of life and the universe and why it's here and why we are here upon this earth wanting and needing love love love love love love love love i need someone who can explain these things to me and like me for who i am and not go away when things get sticky dirty and weak bu-duh bu-buh bu-dup-a-dup buh bu-dup all i ever wanted was some adoration and all i ever needed was some adulation and if you can give me these things then i'll give you the time and love love love love love love love love i need someone who can offer these things to me and like me for who...

Been working to update my web site and adding stories including the Online Love stuff I mentioned earlier http://mywebpages.comcast.net/jstratton1/

Okay I guess sometimes I just get a little enthusiastic when I teach. I tend to move around and not stay still as it is – I start out up front by the projector and overhead. But slowly I start walking around up and down the rows and sometimes even talking from the back. Well by now I hope the students are a little use to it. Well especially lately I know I have really been getting into the topic I have been teaching – plate tectonics. Well I see the amusement on my student's faces as I say things or do things or ramble on and make odd phrases – cause my blondeness shows through (not in an overtly bad way) in my teaching. Well tonight I am talking about convergent plate boundaries – places on the Earth where hundreds to thousands of miles (should be kilometers but since the United States is like one of three idiot countries not using the metric) well these pieces of crust come moving together creating over time mountain ranges like the Himalayans. Now I am already skating on thin...

Below are a few songs by Savage Garden – I love their stuff – especially the CD titled Affirmation To me that CD is like one massive love story/dedication – it just really for me hits the way I view some things and if I ever feel enough to dedicate the CD to you, well then that means the romantic sap in me is rearing its head and you mean a lot – of course I could say that about a lot of songs – my relationship Lyrics file I keep is like up to 50+ pages – lol and always adding songs every day Anyhoo Day started off with a bang – literally – I fell outta bed cause I forgot to set the alarm and was almost late for my workshop so in a hurry and got tangled up in the sheets – I am always getting tangled up in something – lol I am a klutz both physically and mentally – tripping over thoughts and words – lol - I joke about being blonde and such but I really am a frazzled, rambling, spacey blonde more often than not - that's me - deal or leave me a lone - after 30 seconds my short temr me...

So watching the L word and really liking it – YAY for renting – BOO I only have basic cable…, also grading labs, having a kitten claw its way up my leg... just a normal Thursday night/Friday morning. Made it through my meeting Wednesday without major puking I was sooooo nervous and it went okay. I got all upset and it was not too bad. Had a chance to get a free kitten Wednesday so I went for it. It is orange and white and named Gyro Too - I have a history of naming animals after foods... hmmm let's see Cocoa, mustard, mayonaise, gyro, cheesesteak, I could continue but have embarrassed myself enough on this subject My mind finally stopped the hectic ramble as today was a little slower and tomorrow is paperwork catch up day – never thought I'd be saying PAPERWORK IS AWESOME I guess never say never – you never know what may happen, almost anything is possible just usually we don’t get what we want or wish or desire or we get it in bucketloads and choke on it but all things have...

Not what I normally write - but I really liked it... i can hear it by J.E.S. April 2005, I can hear it. It has been going on for the last hour. I could hear it in the bedroom as I lie on top of the neatly made bed. I could hear it in the bathroom as I sat against the wall staring at the toilet. I could hear it in the kitchen as I stood at the sink just looking at the drain. Intermingled with the steady caress of raindrops on my roof it comes through again. Every two minutes. It slices through all other thought, noise, activity. I pull the comforter I keep on the couch over my head muffling the sound of the rain. I start to relax, perhaps I am…. BEEP I curl into a ball as with that simple, basic sound I feel the breath ripped from my lungs. The comforter slides to the floor forgotten as the couch shakes in time to the raindrops, the shudder of the couch matching the heaving sob that rolls from the deepest pit of my stomach up through my chest and glides up the back of my throat...

Decided to try and keep track of what I am doing just to see what a day is like - and I will be honest - I missed stuff I did - just could not write and remember everything - I should wear a pedometer and see how much I walk too - lol - and this is not the busiest day I have had lately - this is pretty slow Thursday up at 6 to get myself and daughter ready 7 - drive to drop daughter off with my ex at his house and coordinate some things 740 - get to work - answering phone messages, printing workshop materials and all sorts of projects first period 755 - 845 Spanish class comes in and helping students creating Spanish children's books in Publisher - damn line tool work, damn it work, work, live, you can do it.............., um student so and so how about we try something else - lol - Teacher forgot ALT codes for Spanish characters so I Googled for her and printed a few sheets for reference - we got the students typing everything up no excuses - lol we are styling now!!!!!!!!! Spanis...

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Okay that is it - stay out you eight-legged freak not kidding here I have no problem going squish, smush, crush, pulp-a-rama, bop, sock, pow, down-for-the-count-and-never-coming-back-up-for-air, bish, bash, smash, stomp, stomp, stomp, stomp - getting the picture yet you stay outta my car and house and way and you live you cross my path and the nearest shoe, paper, person standing next to me body part I grab - etc. is the last thing your multi-faceted eyes will ever see I embrace Darwin and survival of the fittest - I recognize you can bite me and spook me and build those icky webs between my windshield and the dashboard I also know I am going to go butt-kick, whomp-there-it is on your ass if you come near me - well after I stop screaming goes for snakes too and ticks (more Arachnida) and just all buggie-wuggies especially stay out of my car and house running towards me - why do things always stalk me - is it the blonde hair, the short stature the cute facial expressions (okay stretchin...

Went to see Vanessa Carlton in concert tonight – it was rescheduled form earlier and it was really good. The two opening acts were awesome and local: Andrew Holtz www.andrewholtz.com and Nicole Atkins www.nicoleatkins.com (who I got to meet and had her sign my CD – Julie Rules! Oh yeah : ) Both singers were without their bands, they both had the stage dark except a microphone center stage, then they came out with their acoustic guitar and proceeded to just sing and play. I liked the mix of the two and found the songs to be great and I would see both of them again. Then Vanessa came out – she had two pianos – the grand and a calliope type one (which she only used for two songs which was a bummer). She said since this was a make-up she'd do something a little different and do like a VH-1 Storyteller's Café but with out VH-1 – and she did. She told a story about almost every song and did a lot of old stuff and even stuff she had not really done before. She had cool stories...

I like this one song by Garbage a lot – melody is haunting and it is one of the few songs I have heard that uses like a musical saw (if you have heard that sound – only other song that uses something like that that I really know about is a Wiggles song – and now trying hard not to get that stuck in my head). But I like a lot of songs from the group Garbage – one came to mind today because of something – while it is not the exact same thing as the song – I can almost, almost substitute the words a box for a cup of coffee in the song…. And head vs heart – I find things swirling out of hand in many places in my live and that is very unsettling… in fact this last year has just been out of my hand starting with John leaving – on to other things changing, other people leaving and now… well, some good things Work projects semi falling into place… still lots of stuff to get going - family going-ons a little quiet – which is scary in and of itself… but moving through the day overall with my u...

Well sometimes life is disgustingly ironic – I decide to try a little and let go of something… not that I am letting go letting go – as my sister who is the wisest person I know in this topic said – you will never ever stop thinking about her or loving her, it'll just get to a much better, easier place. Plus as I realized, it has been so long now that if something happened to make the person pop back up, I'd feel awkward as shit and most likely things would have changed so much for this person that… well… things would not be the same anyway (meaning on my end cause on the other end they never knew… which I think is just as well) and I'd never say anything and find well life moves on - crazy as that is... my memories, fantasies and happies from before are what I have and I get that… but so there was someone else interested in me and while I was telling them this other person still for some shitty reason I still can not totally fathom (my brain is screwed up I swear it is,...

Whew – decided to take today off – 10 month employees and students have been off this week for break but 12 month employees have to work. So I took a vacation day. Finished up my 3 mile walk and stopped to play some pinball – love pinball. I am not very good but love it anyway – hit Austin Powers, Lord of Rings and Star Wars-return of Jedi today. Pinball is totally cool and awesome… And of course I have another fascination with the game besides liking to play – it kinda is associated with the top thing on "The List" . You know what "The List" is… everyone whether they admit it or not has one. It is that list of fantasy places and setups and where you'd like to get really down and dirty – those things you mention in the same vein as say the conversation topic that goes "If you did a Charlie's Angel which one would it be"… "The List" items are those things that when you go ahead and share you make people go… 'Ewww'….. or tilt...